Home 12/28/2013
So my mom dropped me off at home today. I feel so ridiculous that my mom has to drive me around. I did drive to Walgreens to pick up some new pain meds but I haven't taken any pain meds for almost 2 days. It's good that I haven't taken any pain meds but it's bad that the damn pain is still there.
I have a followup doc appointment Jan 7th with the pain doc. My fear is that I'm going to get the same story. Nothing else we can do it should go away in time. Gee thanks. WTF does that even mean? I know they can't give me an exact date but they also can't give me an exact diagnosis! WTF caused this to begin with! Whatever, I'm just pissed off and when I wake up with that f-ing pain it just starts the day off bad and mornings are already my worst time of the day.
Anxiety/depression wise I'm actually not too bad. I took a whole Klonopin this morning as I was nervous about the drive home and nervous about my mom going back. She made it home so I feel better.
If my pain is in check and the weather isn't too bad I may try that new church. It seems nice and has a big parking lot. I get very nervous if I can't find a place to park and most churches around here have tiny lots and people parking on the street.
At some point I'm going to need to get a new car. My car is 14 years old but it still runs okay. I'm just concerned if I have to make a long trip to my moms I'm nervous old Bessy may not make it. Of couse I'm nervous about everything anymore.
I have a followup doc appointment Jan 7th with the pain doc. My fear is that I'm going to get the same story. Nothing else we can do it should go away in time. Gee thanks. WTF does that even mean? I know they can't give me an exact date but they also can't give me an exact diagnosis! WTF caused this to begin with! Whatever, I'm just pissed off and when I wake up with that f-ing pain it just starts the day off bad and mornings are already my worst time of the day.
Anxiety/depression wise I'm actually not too bad. I took a whole Klonopin this morning as I was nervous about the drive home and nervous about my mom going back. She made it home so I feel better.
If my pain is in check and the weather isn't too bad I may try that new church. It seems nice and has a big parking lot. I get very nervous if I can't find a place to park and most churches around here have tiny lots and people parking on the street.
At some point I'm going to need to get a new car. My car is 14 years old but it still runs okay. I'm just concerned if I have to make a long trip to my moms I'm nervous old Bessy may not make it. Of couse I'm nervous about everything anymore.
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