HOLY CRAP, MY WIFE IS IN IOWA...

WELL, IT'S BEEN OVER A YEAR SINCE MY LAST JOURNAL ENTRY, AND LIFE IS DECENT. TODAY IS MY WIFE'S BIRTHDAY AND SHE IS IN OTTUMWA, IOWA. IM IN PHOENIX, ARIZONA. SHE HAS MEMORIZED MY PHONE NUMBER AND ON JANUARY 25, SHE TEXTED ME AGAIN OUT OF THE BLUE. I'LL ALWAYS REMEMBER WHEN SHE TEXTED ME BECAUSE IT WAS THE DAY BEFORE KOBE BRYANT DIED ALONG WITH HIS PRECIOUS 13 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER, GIGI IN A HELICOPTER CRASH. THAT WAS A SAD SAD DAY, BUT I DID GET TO TALK TO MY WIFE ABOUT IT SO THAT LIFTED MY SPIRITS A LITTLE.

MY WIFE, DANIELLE AND I HAVE TEXTED BACK AND FORTH NEARLY EVERYDAY SINCE THEN. SHE IS ABOUT 90 MILES SOUTHEAST OF DES MOINES IOWA. SHE IS AT A GROUP HOME IN OTTUMWA AND SHE GAVE ME HER ADDRESS SO I GOOGLED IT AND FOUND OUT EXACTLY WHERE SHE IS AND HOW TO GET THERE FROM PHOENIX. I HAVE A FEW PROBLEMS THOUGH. I DON'T KNOW FOR SURE IF MY CAR CAN MAKE THAT KIND OF TRIP, AND I DON'T HAVE A SMART PHONE TO USE GPS ON HOW TO GET TO HER EXACTLY. HER LEASE IS UP AT THE END OF SEPTEMBER, AND THE PLAN IS TO DRIVE UP THERE AND FOLLOW HER HOME TO PHOENIX. SHE HAS A FORD SUV THAT SHE WANTS TO TAKE ON THE TRIP HOME WITH ME. OH, AND ONE MORE PROBLEM, IS THAT I MAY NOT HAVE THAT KIND OF MONEY TO MAKE THE TRIP ANYWAY. I HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH IT WOULD COST TO MAKE THAT KIND OF DRIVE UP THERE. AND I WOULD BE ALL BY MYSELF ALL THE WAY UP THERE. IT WOULD BE WORTH IT IF I ACTUALLY MADE IT UP THERE IN 2 DAYS AND GOT TO SEE HER AND HER LITTLE DOG, BUDDY. AND THEN DRIVING BACK COULD HAVE IT'S OWN SET OF PROBLEMS NOW INVOLVING 2 VEHICLES. IF I COULD KEEP UP WITH HER AND NOT GET LOST IN THE PROCESS. SO ANYWAY, THE TENTITIVE PLAN IF THE LORD WILLS IT IS TO HEAD UP THERE AFTER I GET PAID ON OCTOBER 2ND. SO MY HOPE AND PRAYER IS TO HAVE MY WIFE, DANIELLE ALONG WITH HER DOG BUDDY, BACK AT HOME WITH ME IN EARLY OCTOBER.

I FEEL REALLY BAD FOR DANIELLE. SHE GOT THE CORONA VIRUS AND WAS REALLY REALLY SICK FOR AWHILE. SHE WENT TO THE DENTIST AND HAD ALL HER TEETH PULLED TO GET DENTURES, BUT NOW ITS BEEN A COUPLE OF MONTHS AND SHE HAS NO TEETH AND WONT GET HER DENTURES FOR A COUPLE OF MORE WEEKS. SHE REALLY CANT EAT MUCH BECAUSE SHE HAS NO TEETH AND TO TOP IT ALL OFF, SHE GETS 2-4 INTENSE MIGRAINE HEADACHES A WEEK. NOT TO MENTION, SHE REALLY HAS NO MONEY AFTER THE BEGINNING OF EACH MONTH BECAUSE HER RENT TAKES UP MOST OF HER SSDI CHECK. SHE REALLY SUFFERS FROM PAIN NEARLY EVERYDAY OF HER LIFE AND SHE IS SUCH A SWEETHEART AND DOESN'T DESERVE TO SUFFER AS MUCH AS SHE DOES. I HELP HER OUT FINANCIALLY THROUGH WESTERN UNION WHENEVER I CAN. SHE NEEDS CIGARETTES, FOOD THAT SHE CAN EAT, MONEY FOR CO-PAYS FOR HER DOCTOR AND DENTIST AND MEDICATIONS, AND I TRY TO PROVIDE ALL THAT WHEN I CAN. I HAVE NEVER NOT GIVEN HER MONEY WHENEVER SHE ASKS. I'VE SAID NO A FEW TIMES BUT THEN I THINK ABOUT IT AND CALL MY BANK, AND THEN SEND HER THE MONEY. IM ON SSDI TOO SO I DON'T HAVE THAT MUCH MONEY, BUT I LOVE HER SO MUCH AND FEELS SO BAD FOR HER THAT I SACRIFICE SO I CAN SEND HER MONEY WHENEVER SHE ASKS.

ANYWAY. MY LIFE AT HOME IN MY APARTMENT IS PRETTY BORING. WITH THIS COVID-19 PANDEMIC, THE WHOLE COUNTRY IS LOCKED DOWN IN QUARENTINE. AND IF YOU GO ANYWHERE LIKE TO GET FOOD, MTN DEW, OR CIGARETTES, YOU HAVE TO WEAR A MASK. I'VE BEEN IN QUARENTINE SINCE MID MARCH. IT WAS THE KIDS SPRING BREAK WHEN EVERYTHING JUST SHUT DOWN. SO I'M NOT EARNING ANY EXTRA MONEY FOR TAKING MY KIDS TO SCHOOL, AND NOW THEY AREN'T GOING BACK TO ACTUAL CLASS UNTIL WHO KNOWS WHEN, SO I COULD BE IN DEEP SHIT EVENTUALLY. BUT OH WELL, I'M ENJOYING MY EXTENDED SUMMER VACATION. I SPEND MOST OF MY LIFE ON MY BED UNTIL THE BREAK OF DAWN EACH NIGHT AND THEN GO TO SLEEP UNTIL AROUND 3PM OR SO. SO IM SLEEPING OK, BUT I JUST DO IT DURING THE MIDDLE OF THE DAY. ALL I DO ALL DAY IS WATCH MY CABLE DVR UNTIL ABOUT 10PM AND THEN I WATCH PASTORS ON YOUTUBE PREACH UNTIL ABOUT 5-6 IN THE MORNING. I DON'T GO ANYWHERE UNLESS I ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO. I DON'T HAVE THE MONEY TO BUY ANYTHING BUT THE BARE NECESSITIES BECAUSE I GIVE ALL MY EXTRA MONEY TO DANIELLE. WHICH I DON'T MIND AT ALL. I LOVE HELPING OUT MY BRIDE. I FEEL BLESSED THAT I AM ABLE TO HELP HER WHEN SHE ASKS FOR HELP. SHE SUFFERS ENOUGH. IF THERE IS ANYWAY I CAN GIVE MY WIFE A LITTLE SUNSHINE IN HER MISERABLE LIFE, I DO IT BY THE GRACE OF GOD...AND THE IRS SUPPLEMENT CHECK...THANK YOU JESUS. I EAT A TUNA SANDWICH NOW EVERY NIGHT, AND AT AROUND MIDNIGHT OR SO I EAT SOME NACHO DORITO'S AND BBQ LAYS POTATO CHIPS. AND USUALLY BETWEEN 3-5AM, I USUALLY HAVE A BOWL OF CEREAL. MY NEW FAVORITE IS BLUEBERRY CHERRIOS. SO I AM SURVIVING JUST FINE BY THE GRACE OF GOD. THANK YOU JESUS CHRIST.

WELL, THAT'S MY LIFE IN A NUTSHELL RIGHT NOW. I JUST WANT TO THANK AND PRAISE GOD FOR BRINGING MY WIFE BACK IN MY LIFE. EVEN IF IT IS MAINLY BY TEXT MESSAGE. IT REALLY HELPS WITH MY DEPRESSION AND LONLINESS WHEN I GET TO TEXT BACK AND FORTH WITH HER. SHE DOESN'T SAY MUCH THROUGH TEXTS, BUT IT'S ENOUGH TO SATISFY MY SOUL. 

WELL, UNTIL NEXT TIME WHENEVER THAT MAY BE...GOOD NIGHT, AND GOD BLESS.