Holly I Miss You

I'm trying not to dwell on thoughts of Holly and our past life together. I'm trying not to dwell on pictures and items that were hers. It is taking energy to move forward and to stay as positive as I can. I'm ready for bed at 8:30 PM everyday which is telling me that my physical body is dealing with the stress of her death while today I consciously am trying to not deal with the pain. I'm still in grieving and trying to move forward but it is very difficult. I'm using my rational and realistic thoughts to deal with my emotions and the feelings that are tied to the loss of wife. I have a lot more grieving to do to move forward.