Holidays = Anxiety
The past month Ive had anxiousness over July 4th. When holidays start to creep near I get anxious over what if any plans to make.
I have made and not kept my plans and always seem to talk myself out of anything and wind up unhappy because I didn't keep promise to myself. If I don't keep promises to myself, who will?
MY beau will be out of town all 4th of July week, so I have been trying to plan activities to stay busy. One night, will be a binge tv
night since I never get the tv to myself. One day will be an artwalk event downtown with a meetup group and then on the 4th I wanted to spend my day at the beach with a good book (Suggestions PLEASE), and eat a late dinner and stay for for fireworks.
I so wish want to keep these plans. I need to start being good to myself for once.
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Holidays make me anxious, too. People are crazy enough without the added pressure to be whatever way the given holiday says you oughta be. Give me a fucking break. . .
Still, I feel combatively anxious when I go anti-holiday. Oh, for the love of balance.
Book suggestion:
Anything Toni Morrison. Has she ever written a bad book? "The Bluest Eye" and "A Mercy" are fighting for my favorite spot, but I might have to read all her books again, just to be sure.
Thanks for the book recommendations, Sat am planning on hitting the library and the book store.