Holiday Stress

Oh the joys of the holiday.  So many good things about the holiday, and yet, so many stresses.  I've been feeling down lately, actually pretty much for the past 3 months.  I have so many things to look forward to, and don't want to ruin anyone's holiday.  Still I sometimes think that the holidays are stressful, people just expect me to be happy all the time.  And I don't feel happy!!  People are so excited, and I can't be excited!  People are with family and friends, and largely, I just want to be left alone.  I feel that because it is the holidays, there is no one I can talk to - they are all just happy and wanting to not be bothered.  This is a rambling, which probably doesn't make much written sense.  Just wanted to get it out I guess.