Well I went and screwed up another holiday. But at least I can say it wasn't for my drinking or drug abuse. I have been somewhat sober for the past 6 months. I can say I feel better about that, but i still have me to deal with. And my adult children that hate some of the decisions that I make. I know they are right in some respects, but, jesus, I just want to go to work and go home without feeling like shit all the time.