Holidays
This is the month that things get weird for me. My emotions are on a roller coaster ride and I have trouble keeping myself in check. My sons birthday was the 25th. He is 9 now. I haven't seen him since he was a month old and I no longer get updates on him. He is the reason/excuse for the temperament.
This doesn't go away for some time. The neighbors try to include me in as much as they can that I can tolerate. Lesly knows why so she doesn't push me. Love her! I don't have the support I used to have. I don't need people hovering over me just be my friend.
I get very angry at Marie. She broke her promise to me. And there is absolutely nothing I can do about it. I cry a lot. I try not to think about that week Nickalous was born. It's the worse time I have ever been through.
I've been wondering how he is lately. Weighing heavy on my head.
This doesn't go away for some time. The neighbors try to include me in as much as they can that I can tolerate. Lesly knows why so she doesn't push me. Love her! I don't have the support I used to have. I don't need people hovering over me just be my friend.
I get very angry at Marie. She broke her promise to me. And there is absolutely nothing I can do about it. I cry a lot. I try not to think about that week Nickalous was born. It's the worse time I have ever been through.
I've been wondering how he is lately. Weighing heavy on my head.
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Not much I can say, except to let you know I\'m thinking about ya . . .
Thanks. Not much too say. Just need to voice it every couple of years. No one here to tell.... I\'ll get through it. I always do. Love Ya