holding on

Cried myself to sleep last night. This morning was peaceful. I was the only one of three girls at work this morning and we were piled up, but made it through just fine. Went home at lunch and began to slip. Back to work and having to clean up paperwork from others messes, have one girl who really doesn't know what she's doing messing in our data base of criminals and changing things when she shouldn't and...I'm spiraling down fast but must hold it together b/c I will not subject myself to the "what's wrong? are you mad at me?" and other stupid questions. This really bites and tonight Clinton, Amy the kids and I should be having birthday cake to celebrate his 39th birthday!!!!!
I don't write this for anyone to feel sorry for me, I don't want that. Just please send pleasant thoughts my way if you would. Thank you so much to those who have remembered Clinton and sent hugs. I love you all sooooo much...Lynn
I'll be better soon...yes I will!