Holding On

I'm still holding on.  Sara called Sunday to see how I was doing.  Almost convinced her I was going to make it.  Hell, I can't even convince myself.  She's upset that she can't help me.  It's not her place to support her failure brother!  Still checking on disability, but everybody says it takes a year to get it.  What do I do till then?  My right hand is getting worse.  Handwriting is ridiculous.  Have to write very large to be able to read it.  Found a place online to apply for assistance and have filled out the forms.  Maybe I can get some help.  I'm tired of this!