holding on

Cried myself to sleep last night. This morning was peaceful. I was the only one of three girls at work this morning and we were piled up, but made it through just fine. Went home at lunch and began to slip. Back to work and having to clean up paperwork from others messes, have one girl who really doesn't know what she's doing messing in our data base of criminals and changing things when she shouldn't and...I'm spiraling down fast but must hold it together b/c I will not subject myself to the "what's wrong? are you mad at me?" and other stupid questions. This really bites and tonight Clinton, Amy the kids and I should be having birthday cake to celebrate his 39th birthday!!!!!
I don't write this for anyone to feel sorry for me, I don't want that. Just please send pleasant thoughts my way if you would. Thank you so much to those who have remembered Clinton and sent hugs. I love you all sooooo much...Lynn
I'll be better soon...yes I will!

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JennsMom66
JennsMom66

YES you will.. Hugs MaryLou
MomofJosh
MomofJosh

Lynn,
My spirit and prayers are sooo with you today! Don\'t even think you are feeling sorry for yourself. This would be a hard day for anyone in our position. I hope you don\'t have to put up with too much stuff at work today.
Sending so much love your way,
(((HUGS)))
Leda
Livingjuicy
Livingjuicy

Absolutely Lynn, there should be 39 candles that Clinton is blowing out today. This is not a pity party my friend yet a longing party for what should be... I get it and you\'ve been in my heart since early this A.M. so I hope you are feeling the love vibes across the mountains. Hope the rest of your day is without incident dear friend. Loving care in abundance. XO Joanie
Sandi2947
Sandi2947

Here\'s wishing you to have a peaceful evening...on Ken\'s birthday we wrote on balloons and let them fly higher than we could see...on their way to Heaven...It really gave me comfort...Best for tonight...Love, Sandi
momjmc
momjmc

Perhaps your Clinton and my Jason are sharing birthday cake today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CLINTON!
BinkyH
BinkyH

Lynn, I am sending thoughts of love and peace your way. I choose to work every year on Michael\'s angel date. It helps me to get through. Loving thoughts headed your way tonight. Belinda
deleted_user
deleted_user

Love to you my friend be gentle with yourself love to you
biowoman
biowoman

It isnt fair. Tonight think of the miraculous day that Clinton was born...go THERE...it was joyous...full of love...amazing...love you...
NoraMc
NoraMc

Love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
KimRW
KimRW

Sending you pleasant thoughts, warm hugs and hoping that you have sweet dreams of Clinton and all your precious memories. Love, Kim
deleted_user
deleted_user

Lynn, my heart is with you as you remember the earth birth of your son, Clinton....but I believe our real birth is when we go to heaven....it is there the real celebration begins and one day we will know without doubt...the wonders of heaven and be with our children again. God bless you and give you strength as you deal with the world....love, dale...brandon\'s mom
PLA58
PLA58

Birthdays are hard, I am trying to keep up a celebration for Tara and Katelyn. Katelyn insists on having MIkes favorite meal and apple pie and ice cream ( he did not want cake) she is only 6 so we keep up what is important for her, it is how she keeps him alive in her heart...
Hugs Penny
KandL
KandL

Lynn, I wish you a peaceful night and a gentler day tomorrow. Much love to you and handsome Clinton, Linda
NellW
NellW

I wish for you some peace and kindness. Never think you are feeling sorry for yourself because I think we all feel the same way. Take care of yourself and be kind to yourself.
Nell