Holding on by a string

  Well, Its time to do this I guess. Shortly after I joined here I ended up in the mental hospital. and sense I've been out I've been trying to get any sort of help I can find ( at the pace i move ) but its just one big trail of paper work and crap that makes no sense to me. I have been back to the ER a few times and been declared 5150 twice in 10 days. With no job and my meds costing almost 1,000$ a month there's no way I can do this on my own. My gf made a really bad choice at the worst time that broke the lil bit of heart I have left in to nothing. We are now broken up and I'm expected to move out soon.. it seems that my situation went from bad to worst at the worst time. ppl around me are using this against me. seriously! I'm trying to fucking help my self and they see this as a negative thing!
We might be crazy.. but some normal ppl are just fuck in the head!