Holden's Arrival

Sorry for the long delay in a journal entry.  Since Holden has come into our lives, my world has flipped upside down and getting on the computer is last on my list of "to do's":)  Tonight he is staying w/ my SIL so I am able to get caught up on DS and FB - yay!  So far, he has been a good baby.  I went straight to bottle feeding so we are on a 3-4 hr feeding schedule.  Still getting use to the lack of sleep but I really don't mind seeing that sweet pumpkin's face at 3am.  I will admit, I had a bit of postpardom depression when I came home from the hospital, which brought on some tremendous guilt....how could i be so depressed when having this baby is all I have ever wanted for the last 3 yrs.  Anyway, that was short lived and by week 2, I was back to my old self again - minus the sleep:) I went in on the 11th to be induced and labor and delivery was a piece of cake thanks to the wonderful person that invented the epidural - I really don't know how I would have survived the pain w/o it - my threshold of pain is so weak!!!  It was after Holden came that brought on the worst pain of my life.  I tore pretty bad and once the medicine from the epidural wore off, I felt like I was dying.  It got so bad (and I'm not trying to scare anyone w/ this entry) I kept looking at my mom crying telling her to please, please take away the pain for me.  After many pleads w/ my nurse that something had to be wrong, they gave me more meds in the cathedar that was administered for the epidural.  Thank the good Lord that they had not taken that out yet.  Once the meds took affect, all was good again and my doc came in to give me an exam (thinking it might be a hemotomin (ms?)  But it wasn't - I was just so swollen from the tear and stiching.  So that was the only bad that came from Holden's delivery.  I had to stay an extra day in the hospital to recover.   First night home was a little rough and we had to call in the grandmother at 2a.m. to console a crying baby.  Really, we were clueless as what to do.  Each night has become easier and we are getting the hang of this infant parenting thing:) We are still in awe by our miracle and I thank God every day that Holden is healthy and seems pretty happy to be apart of our family.  The dogs are doing awesome too - much better than I expected (I cried when I left to be induced because I worried about them).  They were very curious at first when we brought him home but now they just ingore him.  Kramer gets really nervous when he cries real big - like we are hurting him.  I think he is going to be really protective of him.  I think the big struggle will be when Holden starts to crawl because they want to lick him whenever they get close.  So far, they haven't got the chance and I am unsure how long we are going to be able to prevent that one.....lol! Hope everyone is doing well and thanks so much for all the well wishes - miss catching up w/ everyone and will try and do better! Much love to all you ladies,Shannon

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Sorry about the rough delivery but Holden is beautiful. It is tough in the beginning but gets easier every day....
JenS77
JenS77

Congratulations on the arrival of little Holden! I\'m sorry that you had so much pain after delivery. I was with you on the depression and feeling guilty about it thing. I\'m so glad you\'re feeling better and that you finally have your healthy little man to enjoy with your family.
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Congratulations Shannon!!! Sounds as though everything went really well for you! It is a complete life changing and overwhelming experience when you first have a baby - no matter how desperately you want/ed it! Glad you have some amazing support around you xoxo.
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Congratulations. Thanks for the honesty in the post. We all appreciate it. Wishing you more joy and love.
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Congratulations on the arrival of holden. Glad you are getting into the swing of things.
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Congratulations. Don\'t feel guilty about the depression, it is very common. There is such a huge hormonal change after delivery. Then add to that the physical pain, sleep deprivation and the stress of being a new parent and most people have at least some down moments. I know I did. I am glad that it sounds like you are doing better now.

Enjoy your little miracle.
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I\'m so glad to hear that you are well and that your dream has come true! I can\'t imagine how it will be with taking my babies home one day, but just like you, I think I\'ll get used to it eventually. What does one expect if you have never been a parent before? I\'m sure you and DH are awesome parents and I wish you both well with your beautiful son. Congratulations!