hmmmmmmmmm.....

So today I am ver very boated. S bad that i have to have my pants undone on the top button. I dont know if that because Af should be here on sat if I'm not pregnant or if thats because I may be pregnant. I dont know when I shoudl test. the doctor told me to thursday and my husband said to wait until he gets home friday. Im torn. becasue if I am them I want ot surprise him in a special way but if im not I will be devistated. I  am driving my self crazy with all teh what ifs. I want ot test so bad right now and I am 12dpo but i would be devistaed and alone if it came out negative. I think i mighttest friday morning before he gets home. But i dont know. I honestly just dont know!!!!!