His Friend

On Sept. 19th I had to put our dog Sam down.  Clyde, my wonderful deceased husband (it is still hard to say that) and Sam were great, great friends.  Three months after my husbands death I had to put our dog down.  The next week was one of the hardest.  Such a roller coaster of emotions and tears.
On Oct. 3rd, Sunday always a very hard day for me, I was so lonely I got on the computer and found myself on the local Humane Society site.  I now have a friend.  A 3 year old Chihuahua.  I named him Joey.  He is bringing me purpose and companionship.  I think this was a good decision.
I am very bothered by the holidays that are coming.  I just can't envision how I will get through them without my husband.  Clyde loved Thanksgiving and Christmas so much.  His joy was so infecting for the whole family.
I am trying to find groups to join to begin the process of my life without Clyde.  I am going to a bereavement group which I have found helpful.  Church helps, but honestly I don't feel comfortable going without my husband.
And so it goes . . .
 
 

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I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved husband. I can tell you that this group of amazing people will offer you comfort and perhaps even a bit of joy over time.
This journey we are on is no fun is it? My beautiful husband passed suddenly without warning just 8 1/2 weeks ago. (yes, I still count weeks, not months). It seems we are all in the same aimless boat when it comes to Sundays.
How I wish for all of us peace. And you know, somewhere, deep down I know we will all find it. With time. The first time someone said that to me I wanted to scream at them, but I know now that it\'s true. It just takes time and for an impatient person like me that is a curse in itself. But I am slowly, slowly, finding my way. Do I wish I didn\'t have to? You bet. Every day. But I know that my husband loved me enough to want me to grow from this tragedy. Somewhere he is watching me and smiling because he knows I love him enough to get through this. Sadder, wiser, lonlier. But I will survive. And so will you.
I\'m glad you have a little companion to help you. Pets can be a wonderful support mechanism and I\'m happy for you.
Hang in there.
Blessings,

Linda