His birthday

Well, today is Spank's 34th birthday.  I remember what we were doing last year.  I didn't get to spend much time with him since he went out with Sean and I wasn't dressed to go out.  I was bummed then, bummed now.  I'm sure he is either at the bar with her and their friends or they are partying at the house.  I know I can't worry about or think about it but it really sucks!! My life is never going to be the same and its upsetting.