Hiphopish where I started

Today I woke up asked my self whyWhy the hell should I fightwhy the hell should I keep living this lifeMy life has been fuckedMy friends are dying and I feel like giving it up  Not giving a fuck  Throwing my hands up Screaming and stuffGot me so mad I feel like a preschooler acting upThrowing a tantrum like wouldn't you know once again I'm the bad son One smart ass remark away from getting my neck rungWhat I was in my past is not what I have becomeThat may seem redundant but some people are not pundit'sOn the subject of life or the things that can really become of itI know thoughEven that smart ass kid was a fighterI could never hide it Strength?I can provide itTake the bull by the horns and dont you know I will ride itSo now I will write the code of my new life and die by itThis is the new beginning of meI will metamorphose and bloom like a rose Become the man that I desire And I know that when I amWhat I desire I shall acquire Light up the world like a 2nd alarm fire