high risk HPV
i got my PAP results and it said that i'm high risk HPV....i wanna cut....i took an emergency med. and it's not helping....i have some suicidal thoughts, but they're not too strong.....i see my psychiatrist today and i don't know what i can do...can't contract for safety i know THAT.....i'm watching a movie that i like to try and distract myself....and i'm restricting.....i wanna punish myself....it's a really good idea to me......i don't know what to do.....i should probably call my mom and tell her what's going on....that's what i'm SUPPOSED to do anyway.....better do that soon, so i don't get yelled at....my psychiatrist is gonna ask if i've had suicidal thoughts and stuff.....i'm gonna call my therapist and see if she has any appointments for friday....
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What would you tell a friend to do who felt this way? To carry on and punish themselves? The hardest thing to do sometimes is show ourselves some kindness when we most need it. I am glad you are seeing your psychiatrist today, Val. I hope you called your mom, and I hope she\'s a good support person for you. High risk of HPV is not the end of the world. It isn\'t. Hold steady, RESIST the urge to harm yourself. JFT show yourself some self-compassion and love. I have to remind myself to do that too. (((Hugs)))
Hang in there hun xx