Hiding out in my basement, lol.
It's fundraiser time for the fire department.... they go house to house, sirens blaring, knocking on doors for donations. Of which, I have none to give again this year as money's really tight once again. I could hear the sirens next block over as I pulled in my driveway and immediately all the neighbors hopped in their cars and left, lol. Doesn't mean the fundraiser is a bust - they leave envelopes on the doors and almost everyone sends in what they can afterward, lol.... yeah, I'll see if I can too, next paycheck.:P
I'm having a weak emotional moment tonite. I'm sure it's because I got up at 4:30 this morning so I could go for a bike ride and still walk the dogs before work... way too early. And I'm having sugar issues - I changed up some lunches thinking it would be cheaper and all it did is give me a sugar buzz (I keep forgetting that peanut butter has sugar!) Not good. Especially since I then felt my sugar levels crash, got tired from it, BLAH.... longest afternoon I've had yet! I hate it when I do that to myself!
From that point on, I slowly got disgusted with people too... first was telling people my hours and then having them show up last minute and cutting into MY lunch hour; then had conversations about how my company works for lending and do they listen? NOOOO..... and then they got mad a me because I had to put my foot down. Seriously - walking in last minute after we had to SUE YOU to get our money back and then staring at me with a 30 second silent look is NOT gonna get you a loan, people! And then the internet crashed and I called our provider just like I've always done in the past... repair guy wanted me to sign an agreement for the President (oh hell no!)... left half his equipment when he left AFTER he told me he also showed up during my lunch hour when I specifically told the tech I was gone from 1 until 2! - I guess I'll be nice and drop it off at their office tomorrow since he didn't come back for it... and after he left, corporate office announced that I was supposed to be a mind reader and KNOW that they have parts there. (sorry, I guess I need to brush up on my mind reading skills to realize we do computer repairs as well as lending! Ok, sorry for my sarcasm, lol). And while I was waiting for my computer to get back online, I started dwelling. It didn't help that news reports were about AIG and the banking crisis today.... add in reports on the Eurocrisis, and here came my anxiety! I started thinking about my aunt and the distribution of the inheritance, the subsequent silence I've had since my last email to her, and began to wonder if the fraud that happened with my X and our joint checking account has happened again. Did my aunt ALREADY transfer everything to the brokerage account without my permission? Is that why she's silent? Is she trying to figure out how to cover her ass now? Is it being gambled away with the banks right now and completely out of my control? And just how much is this particular bank in debt with regards to the Eurocrisis? I suspect LOTS. And if so, how the HELL am I going to fight for it or worse PAY to fight for it? Yeah, I'm driving myself crazy.
Oops here comes the fire truck (sirens are closer, lol).... and the dogs are going nuts... I'll be able to go upstairs to start dinner shortly, lol! A HEALTHY one, lol. And I've just decided I better take the night off with my thoughts - sounds like a good night for science fiction - so I'm gonna forget everything until tomorrow and see if something distracting is on SyFy instead. LATER!
I'm having a weak emotional moment tonite. I'm sure it's because I got up at 4:30 this morning so I could go for a bike ride and still walk the dogs before work... way too early. And I'm having sugar issues - I changed up some lunches thinking it would be cheaper and all it did is give me a sugar buzz (I keep forgetting that peanut butter has sugar!) Not good. Especially since I then felt my sugar levels crash, got tired from it, BLAH.... longest afternoon I've had yet! I hate it when I do that to myself!
From that point on, I slowly got disgusted with people too... first was telling people my hours and then having them show up last minute and cutting into MY lunch hour; then had conversations about how my company works for lending and do they listen? NOOOO..... and then they got mad a me because I had to put my foot down. Seriously - walking in last minute after we had to SUE YOU to get our money back and then staring at me with a 30 second silent look is NOT gonna get you a loan, people! And then the internet crashed and I called our provider just like I've always done in the past... repair guy wanted me to sign an agreement for the President (oh hell no!)... left half his equipment when he left AFTER he told me he also showed up during my lunch hour when I specifically told the tech I was gone from 1 until 2! - I guess I'll be nice and drop it off at their office tomorrow since he didn't come back for it... and after he left, corporate office announced that I was supposed to be a mind reader and KNOW that they have parts there. (sorry, I guess I need to brush up on my mind reading skills to realize we do computer repairs as well as lending! Ok, sorry for my sarcasm, lol). And while I was waiting for my computer to get back online, I started dwelling. It didn't help that news reports were about AIG and the banking crisis today.... add in reports on the Eurocrisis, and here came my anxiety! I started thinking about my aunt and the distribution of the inheritance, the subsequent silence I've had since my last email to her, and began to wonder if the fraud that happened with my X and our joint checking account has happened again. Did my aunt ALREADY transfer everything to the brokerage account without my permission? Is that why she's silent? Is she trying to figure out how to cover her ass now? Is it being gambled away with the banks right now and completely out of my control? And just how much is this particular bank in debt with regards to the Eurocrisis? I suspect LOTS. And if so, how the HELL am I going to fight for it or worse PAY to fight for it? Yeah, I'm driving myself crazy.
Oops here comes the fire truck (sirens are closer, lol).... and the dogs are going nuts... I'll be able to go upstairs to start dinner shortly, lol! A HEALTHY one, lol. And I've just decided I better take the night off with my thoughts - sounds like a good night for science fiction - so I'm gonna forget everything until tomorrow and see if something distracting is on SyFy instead. LATER!
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It souunds like you had a tough day. If you\'re that worried about your money wait a few days and write your aunt again. Most banks are doing well right now and I\'m making a lot of money this week on my retirement acct.
I bet the dogs were all howling because of the sirens. Max does everytime he hears sirens.
Sounds like one Hell of a day...and I can assure you of one thing. If our local fire department went around with their sirens blaring hoping for donations, that\'s the LAST THING I would give them! Whatever happened to peace and quiet?
I hear you on the \"sugar blues\" -- at least you know what caused the high and subsequent crash. My lunch is usually some lean protein and an egg in one form or another. Pure energy -- no carbs to make me sleepy and no sugar to make me \"high.\"
I hope you get a good night of restful sleep and that tomorrow will be a whole lot less stressful. Try to remember - One thing at a time; one day at a time.
Big squeezy hugs to you tonight, my friend. Tomorrow is another day.