Hi I’m Ericka and I don’t know what to do...

I’m sorry to be writing about my personal life. I just need someone to talk to. So I’ve been with my boyfriend for almost 2 years and in the past I have found naked photos of girls and naked photos of him on websites but I wanted to be the bigger person and forgive him. Well I trusted him again even when he kept accusing me of cheating. But when he fell asleep, I went on him phone and I saw him sending this one girl emoji of hearts and I don’t know if I should be worried. It was more like stickers saying “ I want your attention “ and like a lot of hearts. And I’m trying not to freak out because I have a VNS and I don’t want to panick and have a seizure. I’m thinking about getting my own place and finding someone who has the same interests as me. I want a trusting relationship. I wanna be happy. He leaves all hours of the night and comes back with flowers. He says he went fishing. There’s no fish that come out at night.