Hi friends
I just wanted to stop by and say I miss this site and the good people I met on here. It has been some time since I have been on and I guess you could say maybe I didn't feel I needed this site anymore but the fact is I do and have needed it every day. I'm at the point in my life where I don't know how to be sometimes. I tried working a full time job and did it but got layed off. I think it has something to do with being Bipolar. I was going tofind out about benefits and I guess I had to spill the beans about my health..I still miss my father..I don't really know what else to get off my chest because I'm in the same place I was when I first came to this site and now I'm just older. lol..not funny I know...I did 420 for a while and drank alot...Im trying to stop now. How can one live a clean life when there are too many sins that won't rest?? Anyhow, I wish everyone happy holidays and please be safe. love,jamie
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i get it buddy...I did the same thing....i gained all this knowledge and awareness and then thought i could go out and do it my way again...and guess what? I failed miserably...It just doesnt work at all...never has never will for me anyway...I need constant people around that have the same issues i do to learn and hold myself accountable at all times...i am just wired different than \"normies\" i learned a hard lesson over the past year and i still have alot of work to do...the outside stuff really doesnt matter but the inside is priceless and has escaped me my whole life...i have had pieces of it...but never the whole pie...
good luck...
james
Thank you James..I wish you the best in health. I just don;t know what it\'s gonna take to have a normal life or atleast appear like I do with the people I see.