Hi everybody!

It's been a long time since I've been on here.  I hope everyone is doing well.  I've been in such a depression that I can't seem to shake.  Even though I had my neck surgery, I still have pain.  And I gave my school bus job up in July.  I'm just terrified of being in another accident.  I was even side swiped by a lady a little over a month ago.  It just seems never ending.  I was seeing a therapist but when I gave my job up, I lost my health insurance.  Because I've not been able to work, we're so far behind on bills it's not even funny.  In 2 days, they're going to put a lien on our property for unpaid taxes.  It's just so frustrating that for the last 16 months, instead of being able to grieve the loss of my son,  I've had to worry about so many other things because of the car accidents.  I've got to believe all this is happening for a reason, but my God, WHAT?!?!  I lost my son!!!  The biggest loss of all!!!  Do I have to lose everything else we worked for years for?!  This lawsuit is just taking forever and I wish it would hurry up.  Not going to happen in the next 2 days though.
Sorry to be such a downer.  Things just haven't been good.