Hi everyone

Well I haven't been rioting in here for. A while I was having a realy hard time ....something happened in thfamily And ended in a loss  I had to get my meds raised .....this has been going on for about a year now and I am finally am coming around at least back to ware I was a year a go so still have a long way to go ....but now my head is above water ....for me depression is like drounding I go under until I get help ......I am happy to have you all for friends and to have this group to come to so I can see that I am not the only one this way I have a loving husband for. Who I am very thankfully for I still had to take him with me to talk to my phicaatrist it Is so hard for those who haven't gone through depression to understand what we go through ...I also have 5. Wpunderfull children who ave given us 19 grandchildren and one on the way ...and 2 great grandchildren .......so why am I depressed.    Most people would say I some sounder the same thing .....but I have suffered from depression allmy life. It runs. In my fathers side of the family ........I have been better and I have been worse.   It has been a life long struggle but I will keep fighting because there I sent enemy thing else I can do and I if hanging on is all I can do that's what I will do ...I don't let even my husband know how bad I am it would just worrie him and I don't want that it is bad enough he has to watch me with my migrains .......when I came here I was desperate for some extra support I have a phicaatrist and have been on antidepressants. For the last 9 years. But it wisent enought the meds can't do it on ther Owen I need to work on my self and push my self to get out of the house have a cup pile friends mostly I go all over with my husband if I don't have a migrain ........they have been bad since last fall I have Han one migrain that keeps going up and dowen in strength .....well enough of that ....... I have gotten myself a new sheaf and I have shelving that my husband put up today  and yesterday we bought storage bins.  Today I was suposto be cleaning out my painting room but I woke up with a migrain an have had to take a couch day it is just to painfully to be moving around and that is with the meds .......so tomorrow crossing my fingers I will start cleaning out my art room     I miss my painting ..a very good friend got me back into doing art so I started with crostichins but I don't use the packages I just use make my Owen Devine.    So once I got a tast of that I don't know why I stopped ......this group has been good for me.     But I realy hated it when they took out the chat ....I still do ....it was a very important part of this hole groups support       Now I need to get moving again I always seam to be starting over ..... That's ok one day at a time ..... Gof bless everyone