Hi angel friends, thank you for your comments. i have some new updates.

Hi angel friends, thank you for taking the time to read/write, and reply. :) it means a lot to us, during these times, and with all that's been going on, we've been very thankful for all of your love, care, and support, during all of this. it's helped us, more than you can know,and means so much to us :) 

thank you all, for taking the time to read, reply,and shairng your thoughts, and support :) Everyone knows, Holly and i have been together, very close, for a long time, and through a lot of things. the  caring support, comfort, and being there for eachother, it's something she and i cherish,and treasure. we're very close, and more close than everyone maybe knows. my family and i, have dealt with a lot over the years, we have experience in dealing with situations, that are always not the best. my sister Jenn's breakdown in 2008 from unbelievable grief and loss. when she and Mike got together, they had awful fights here, and caused all kinds of situations. my brother Charlie (my oldest brother), has been sober for 10 years of his life since he was 16 years old,and he's in his 50's now. he can't stop drinking and we have faced that journey with him, for years. we never turn him away. we understand, and have been through a lot, with all of the dealings, coping. Holly isn't off like this. what set her off, was her daughter Kim. Holly is very natural, caring person,just like all of us. a bad day to her, use too be if something was wrong with her computer, but what Kim did to her, we'd never treat anyone like, family, or friends. Holly deserves a fresh start. i usually don't write much about Holly and i in my journals, but she and iare much closer, than i beleive everyone knows. we've maintained a balance in our lives, and our relationship, it's always worked so well,and has been very good for us. i believe, what she encountered at Regina's place, was much more than she could handle, and when she reached out to her family, i'm not sure they ever knew, how bad the living situation was, just that, not  including how the situation affected her health in many bad ways,and in the current situation she is in, who knows where she could end up, especially without the complete support 100%, from her loved ones. i know this is a big thing, but if we don't give this a try, it would be unfair, to the situation. She deserves a fresh start. she needs hope, and to have stability :) sometimes,it felt to her,like me, and my family was all she had, during hard times. a distance between us, was hard,because we could only do so much,and could only be there in limited fashion, but it was better than nothing. i heard her voice, her scared voice when Regina was going off yellowing to the top of her lungs, i heard fear, and upsetness, anxiety of what Holly was experiencing. She's a survivor of domestic abuse from years ago. Holly shared pictures with family,and her therapist, and recordings of Regina's outbursts, and not much was done. her family, they have their lives, and we all have our lives, and Holly's become a big part of our family over the years. 

i called Holly's friend Linda, and Margie, her brother's inlaw, we talked,and her brother texted me. They are in agreement, and supportive of the idea, of Holly relocating to Connecticut. Holly called me, she had some anxiety at the place,because one of the workers there, told her to be quiet, when she heard a bird outside. Holly loves nature, and doesn't deserve to be treated like that. it's not right. joys, enjoyment to her, so much has been taken from her. i believe, my family and i give her a lot of joy, enjoyment, YOU ALL do too, more than you know. i will begin to write more, about how much she cares about everyone here, and is thankful you all are there for me and my family :) she has only the best thoughts, and well wishes, for everyone. she and my mom are close,and also my sister Lisa and Holly,and Holly loves kids, pets, nature :) she could join my mom and i, for nature walks :) 

Holly added my mom and i to the release form, to be able to speak with her social worker. her social worker called me, and we had a good talk, and she's going to call tomorrow too. it was a really good talk :) there's talks about Holly relocating here to Connecticut,and establishing getting a new dr, therapist,and phyiciatrist. Holly is on disability, and recents monthly payments. i know she will want to help  my parents,and us all, but i know my parents, they won't accept anything like that. we just aren't taking in any person,this is Holly,and anyone who has read my journals over the years, sharings, all knows, that Holly is close with us. it's gonna be different, some changes, but we just can't let her continue to be put in bad place, after bad place, and it setting her back. we have a chance to do something really good here, making a positive impact, and going slow at it, and helping her with things as she makes progress :) i think, our constant love, support, being there for her with encouragement, will help her further her healing, to a healthier future, and we'd love to be a part of it all. it will be a journey to share, in my journals. tomorrow's my 12th anniversary, here on ds. i came to DS, down, extremely shy, unmotivated, lost, and no direction. Everyone here, no matter what year after that 2007, every member, friend, i've come into contact with,and communicated with, played a role in me reversing those things i mentioned, so better my life. as i enter my 12th year on DS,Holly is experiencing a rough time, and she's reaching out for support, just like i did. my journals, always have been about giving hope. people i don't even know, or never became close friends with, send me messages, and just say,how hopeful they felt after reading my journals. i want to always keep that going forward,and will :) Holly's gonna get better, and through this,and share in so many new times,adventures, with us, that it's going to be not only progress for her, but also progress for me. i will always be here, my family too. we have no issues with anyone's path, or direction, or situation they may be going through. we are united on  DS, because we all came here at some point in our lives,where we needed to talk, or needed help  with something, the range of subjects, deeper than the sea. focusing on the positives, and moving forward, is definitely a way, to face each day. we all have been through a lot,have suffered unthinkable losses, in tragedies, or have had amazing triumphs to share. that's what DS is about,and i'm ready to continue to share Holly's healing journey with everyone, and sharing about all of the things we all enjoy, together as a family. This isn't changing our days, or routines, or our traditions. it adds to it, and in a very caring,  loving way. i'm just saying, wheni came to DS in 2007,i was just me, and nothing more. i just needed a chance to share my journey,and i'm just saying, Holly needs a chance right now, and if i was deserving of a chance, she is too :) 

i have a deep passion to help others. that's something that can't be taken out of you. i'll always stick by the sides of my family, Holly,and friends, and will go beyond the limit to be there. i couldn't imagine it any other way.Holly and i are so close, and we all believe, this is best chance, to really go forward even more to more healthyness, and betterment of her life :) she doesn't have much, but  as long as she has love, she's got hope :)  

Holly may be able to be discharged in 1 week, and her social worker is gonna call us tomorrow, about transportation. i want to write about our days, nature walks,adventures, with spirit soaringness,and i haven't been able too,because she hasn't been well. to care about something that much, it's a devotion of the heart. if you feel it, or ever have, you understand it even more :) Holly's a fine, wonderful person, and no one deserves the hardships she's endured. we love you angel friends, i'm here, and always will be :) i just want all to be ok too :) Your love, caring, encouragement, we take it to our hearts, very much :) Holly and i always discussed this time, and always dreamed, hoped to live together, someday. this time, very rough time, is a chance to help make her healing journey easier, and that will only add to the togetherness she and i love,and appreciate :) we want to make it happen for her :) she deserves it, and we want to share every step forward :) 

To see this smile again, and to see her healthy again like this, is a hope my heart has, as we  continue this new year, 2019. :)