Hi....am back

I finally found my username and password. I've been on this site like forever always going back and read other people's comments or entries. So I started my journey with DS about 5 years ago during my hellish time with gambling addiction, the slot machines. It's got such a tight grip on me, I was powerless, fearful, angry, I didn't know or could control myself. During that time I had a good job, I was on the right track for life except I got addicted to gambling. I started my journal journey on this website and hopefully I can gain some friends because am such a lonely person, my so call or thought to be best friend dropped me in the trash can when I lost everything. Am just so glad that I am reunited with my login again so I can start my real journey again. So now it's 2016, 5 years later, I filed for bankruptcy, I lost my good job, I have nothing in the bank, am unemployed, I have about $200 on me. Would of had $530 but I gambled half away in the slot machine. I gambled away pretty much everything except my life. I feel like I wanted to end my life bit I refused to let gambling win on me on that one. Am just so grateful to my parents, who let me stay with them until the situation gets better bit am just so depressed, tired, I worked all my life only to have nothing at the age of 36. I will so happy if some of u could reach out to me and comment. Thanks, hopeful for tomorrow.