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well im alive and breathing thats about as far as it goes..not much else to say completely lost at the moment. not sure if im coming or going. wether i wanna be alive or not.
keep thinking that everyone would be better off without me here.. i feel like i always been a burden and a disapointment to my family and friends. always the cause of upset and drama in the family. i have lost control of my own daughter who doesn't seem to wanna be near me now. i sat there in the bath with my head under the water not really thinking. just wanted to fall asleep and not wake up.
i feel im not even here not in my own body. everyone running around doing things for me and taking care of my daughter while i lay here on a different planet. just feel like they shouldn't be doing this and yet again everything is my fault.. i am the cause of more upset and pain.
keep thinking that everyone would be better off without me here.. i feel like i always been a burden and a disapointment to my family and friends. always the cause of upset and drama in the family. i have lost control of my own daughter who doesn't seem to wanna be near me now. i sat there in the bath with my head under the water not really thinking. just wanted to fall asleep and not wake up.
i feel im not even here not in my own body. everyone running around doing things for me and taking care of my daughter while i lay here on a different planet. just feel like they shouldn't be doing this and yet again everything is my fault.. i am the cause of more upset and pain.
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Vicky!! I hope you start to feel better. Your family and daughter love and need you. Our girls are close in age and mine is also in the phase of telling me she doesn\'t love me and that I\'m not her friend. These are just our toddlers learning different emotions and also learning how those emotions affect others. It\'s totally normal!! Also, it sounds like your family is supporting you, right now and they only do that because of how much they truly love you!! Please remember that!! Maybe you can talk to your doctor about switching your meds? I hope you start to feel better soon.