Hey it's been 2 days NO TEARS!!!!

So i'm just sitting at my desk comparing my bills to my checkbook never a happy time under normal circumstances but now that 75% of the income is gone thanks to the 42 yr old man child I thpught great this is going to be really ugly. It wasn't to bad thank God he ran out before tax time right. Anyway  I just realized that I haven't cried in 2 days. I don't even know how it happened crying, and crying , and crying has been like breathing or drinking water it's just something I do all day everyday. Then all of a sudden no tears, why??? I'm still sad i'm still scared sometimes i'm still lonely so why no tears????