Hey all. Just checking in.
I just wanted everyone to know that I am doing well. I realized that I let things like the internet, games, porn, smoking, my phone, and television consume my life. I have learned to cut back from these activities and do things that are more beneficial to me.
I know that i have an addictive personality and I will abuse any of the things that I previously mentioned. There're some things that I have just quit, like smoking and watching porn and there are some things that I just cut back on like television and games.
I actually make myself go out to a club and am working on my social skills so that I can enjoy myself among others. I have a wall put up around myself when it comes to men or anyone that I think that I might have to compete against. I am a typical male and I like to be the dominant person in a group. When I'm not, I turn into an insecure asshole.
I have made myself get out and interact with other people. I have learned that I am lonely but don't like to be around people for fear of getting embarrassed.
I don't like this about myself so I purposely go to the kareoke club and I sing in front of people, sober lol. At first it took a little liquid courage but now I sing sober. I don't necessarily enjoy singing all the time but it has gotten easier to get up there and act like a fool. I've learned that you can look and act like the biggest ass in front of people and as long as you don't care about what they think, they will want to hang out and talk to you. I have found confidence in myself when it comes to my social skills. I actually read articles and things that give better insight on how to interact with people but just getting out there and learning what works and what doesn't is very helpful as well.
I'm not as comfortable as I'd like to be but I'm getting there. It sort of feels dumb talking about it like this but I did it anyways.
Just wanted my friends to know that I'm still around and I will respond to messages that are sent. It might not be a same day reply but I do check for messages daily. Hugs all. ;)
I know that i have an addictive personality and I will abuse any of the things that I previously mentioned. There're some things that I have just quit, like smoking and watching porn and there are some things that I just cut back on like television and games.
I actually make myself go out to a club and am working on my social skills so that I can enjoy myself among others. I have a wall put up around myself when it comes to men or anyone that I think that I might have to compete against. I am a typical male and I like to be the dominant person in a group. When I'm not, I turn into an insecure asshole.
I have made myself get out and interact with other people. I have learned that I am lonely but don't like to be around people for fear of getting embarrassed.
I don't like this about myself so I purposely go to the kareoke club and I sing in front of people, sober lol. At first it took a little liquid courage but now I sing sober. I don't necessarily enjoy singing all the time but it has gotten easier to get up there and act like a fool. I've learned that you can look and act like the biggest ass in front of people and as long as you don't care about what they think, they will want to hang out and talk to you. I have found confidence in myself when it comes to my social skills. I actually read articles and things that give better insight on how to interact with people but just getting out there and learning what works and what doesn't is very helpful as well.
I'm not as comfortable as I'd like to be but I'm getting there. It sort of feels dumb talking about it like this but I did it anyways.
Just wanted my friends to know that I'm still around and I will respond to messages that are sent. It might not be a same day reply but I do check for messages daily. Hugs all. ;)
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I think getting out to do kareoke is pretty brave. I would like to try it but am pretty tone deaf so wouldn\'t want to empty the club ;)
That\'s what\'s great about these clubs. You don\'t have to be great. Everyone just admirers your bravery for getting up there.