heres where i start

Well, i have now been to jail and a mental hospital over my addiction and my crazy thoughts. I have lost my daughter to dcs and its literaly broken my heart into pieces. i have a wonderful girlfriend who is the best thing that ever happened to me. she suppots me when i dont deserve it and she has held my hand this whole time thru the craziness. I dont deserve her but she loves me so much and i have never loved anyone the way that i love her. this dcs case gets stupider and stupider. They are out to get me they have pulled every trick in the book asked us to spend stupid amounts of money asked for multiple acessments. its just out of control. I feel personally attacked they had there mind made up to take my daughter before they ever even saw me.

i miss her so much it has always been me and riley sinse the day she was born. she was a premie that almost died on me and i have never known the kind of love that comes out of you for being a mother, i have worried about her from day one and now im having to let go of my bond to her to survive. It hurts so bad to let go. im getting to tired to fight so i accepte and admitted i have an issue and amd working to fix it. But the damage they have done is permanent.