here it comes again

well im sittin here watchin a movie nd playin some free online poker which is ok but. i dunno i was drivin around to pick up milk nd bread earlier tonight so i went to the atm to pick up some money. when i got there i checked my balance and i didnt even have 50 dollars in there which kinda hit me cuz i jus got the electric bill today nd it was a lot more than 50, luckily i got paid at my one job today but it wont be nearly enough since i dont work enough hours there. which is the reason im stayin in on a friday night i need to save the lil money i have. i have some cash tht i keep in my room its not much but it will hopefully hold me off until i find more work. jus these bills are now comin nd they are kickin my butt due to the fact tht i prolly work 15-20 hrs a week at lil pay so i need more work so i can keep up with these bills nd food nd i still go out like i used to wen i actually had money so i need to cut tht back nd save some. well the point of this journal, which is the 1st one i have wrote in a while, due to the fact tht i have been going down the beach or jus been kinda busy even tho i am not really busy tho. but it has been a crazy hectic summer tho a really fun one but crazy nd i dunno. my last few journals have been happy cuz i was gettin this house nd everythin else but i dont no how happy i really was. i think it was jus me writin th i was happy hopeing tht it would carry over into gettin me actually happy. u no wat im talkin about. as i was sayin the purpose of this journal was due to the fact tht as i was driving to the store i was feelin my depression startin to come back which i really didnt like. i think it was due to several factors for this happening one was the money factor which is never any good. i do have an interview at amazon.com the 28th of this month to be like a shipper nd do tht type of stuff, nd my real good friend from my chuirch works there nd is kinda huigh up so he set me up nd i will most likely get tht hopefully. i also have a worker type person tht is tryin to set me up wit a job, so most loikely i will have another job by the end of summer nd i hope this one iwll give me more hours nd more money to survive. i no the times suck right now with the recession nd everythin. well the next reason is the fact tht i am not in a single healthy relationship, i mean i have been goin out on dates but i am jus happier wit jus a girl i dunno. i have jus been settlin for these girls who are either too immatture for me cuz they asre young or jus not the best lookin choice like the girls of my past pre TBI. gotta finish up quick here my ride is almost here but the last reason i am gettin a lil down is cuz of the fact tht i took too long to register for my class i need to take so they were all full so i will be takin another semester off. i will write more aboput this later this week. so God bless everyone hope yall are only having good things nd good times.