Here goes nothing.
I don't know how long this feeling is going to last, but for now, I feel good. I feel strong. I feel like I can do this. So, here it goes. I am going to quit hurting myself. There's no way I'm going to say right now that I will never do it again. Quitting is a process and I know it's not going to happen overnight. But I'm going to try. My goal is one year. I feel like if I can make it a year, by then (hopefully) the urges will be gone and I will have taken back control of my life.
I won't lie. By the end of writing this, I'm a little scared. I have no idea how I'm going to do this and I'm terrified that I'll fail. I don't want to end up feeling like I have to do it to feel better but can't. I'm stressing out again and I know how this feeling usually ends. I'll update for now that I'm at 1 day, but I'm not sure. The "strong" feeling I had is already gone. We'll see, I guess.
I'm going to try to update this as much as possible. I've never tried anything like this to help me quit, so I hope it works.
I won't lie. By the end of writing this, I'm a little scared. I have no idea how I'm going to do this and I'm terrified that I'll fail. I don't want to end up feeling like I have to do it to feel better but can't. I'm stressing out again and I know how this feeling usually ends. I'll update for now that I'm at 1 day, but I'm not sure. The "strong" feeling I had is already gone. We'll see, I guess.
I'm going to try to update this as much as possible. I've never tried anything like this to help me quit, so I hope it works.
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