Here comes Christmas
Hope everyone is doing well. I've been sick for 3 weeks with some kind of virus.I have never coughed so much in my life.And top all that off I'm very depressed about the holidays.I hope one day in my life I will enjoy Christmas again. Haven't written much on here but I want to tell everyone that your my strength I don't get it at home I don't get it from my family It's like Justin never existed.I sometimes wonder if it's because I cry but when I do cry it makes me feel better.They always say it's going to be ok I feel worse now then I did the 1st year.Second year coming up scares me to death.I just have a weird feeling inside (sick and lonely) Hope everyone tries to a have a Merry Christmas my theory is I just think it's Jesus's birthday.I think that's how I'll cope this year.I'm going to my Mom's for Christmas wish me luck because their's 40 people in her house.MY first year since Justin died.I'm going to give it a try. God Bless to all.Love,Vicki
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I wish you a speedy recovery. This grief stuff has a way of making us physically sick as well as emotionally sick. The holidays are difficult but I\'m getting ready for my second and it\'s much better than the first. I\'ve even shopped and decorated a bit. I\'m happy you are going to give things a try. That\'s all that is expected is that we try. Perhaps all the people will be good distractions and you can enjoy Christmas a little. Thinking of you. Love Robin
Hope you get better soon. Just kind of go with the flow that day & if you need to cry just do it & don\'t worry about what others thank. Because if they haven\'t been in our shoes they don\'t know how we feel...Love ya & lots of hugs, Connie
I am so sorry you do not have the support that you need. Most of people do not understand what a horrible journey that we are on. I am proud of you for trying things...that is the most you can ask of yourself right now...know that we understand and come to us anytime...love and hugs...Karen