help me!!!!!!!!!!!!

i wanna die.....i really do.....i was gonna see this dietitian....i had it all worked out and then i realized i couldn't...my mom told me that i couldn't b/c i have other bills to pay....and what's the point of going once or twice if i can't continue going???? i told my mom that i was thinknig about going to a PHP or something and she said that i'd hafta figure out a way to pay for that too....i just wanna get away from this all!!!!!!!!!!!! i don't wanna be here anymore!!!!!!!!! im not healthy....what's the point of living if your life isn't healthy anyway??? there IS no point....i hate the way that i feel everyday and i hate that i hafta apologize for everything i do wrong to my parents.....i hate that i hafta battle all this crap....I HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i don't wanna be here anymore....there's no point to my life anymore...