help im really depressed.

Why does everything have to always suck?  why is my husband always acting so distant from me? its really bothering me. and i had to change my goal back to 0 because i did have  part time job but things didnt work out cuz of this stupid disabitity and they didnt even send me the check they owe me for the work that i did do for them!  i am so depressed right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!