Hello again...

Well. It has been a loooong time since my last entry. Almost two whole years. So much has happened to me in that span of time I can't really begin to write it all down here, especially since I am typing on my cellphone. Anyway, what brought be back here lately is the almost crippling depression and suicidal fantasies I've been having. Also, I experienced a particularly brutal bout of dysmorphism that amped up the ideations of death. I have been really anxious and staying at home as much as possible which isn't healthy. The only light at the end of the tunnel I experienced was a really really great time I had with some friends that I hadn't seen in a few months. We ate sushi and went to the mall and bought books and played video games. It literally pulled me out of my depression. I usually don't like hanging out with people in public but I had a really good time with them. It made me focus on something other than my self hatred.