Hello

So much has happened since I was here last. Where do I start I came on here years ago and had a wife who was cheating on me making me think I was making it all up. Then after a while I had the proof it took to comfront her and she finally accepted theat I had cought her. I could have divorced he right then since she had put me in to a point that I was questioning everything but I have known her all my life and even though she put me through the wringer I stayed with her. It took me about 3 years for me to trust her again but we finally got to the point that we were a great couple...during that time I ent throught 2 strokes the lower part of my brain steam is shot but to see and talk to me today you would never know it. I do believe I got better and didn't become a vegtable becuse I had a higher call. After a few years my Wife complained that her right breast hurt....she thought it was because she dropped a box at work on it but the pain never went away. I should have demanded she go to the dr but she did not. Then one sunday she was wearing a white t shirt and I looked at her and saw a lot of blood on it. She was bleading out of it the skin was breached. We went to a dr the next day and he said this doesn't look good and made an appointment for a breast cancer dr....they did tests and she was diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer. If i had left when the cheating had been found she would have just died and not fight it. She instead fought it for about 2 years I was her constant care taker and our love  grew. We batteled it with all we had and in the end last year she died here at home like she wanted....I still love her and miss her dearly. sometimes we do not know why we are put through so much in this life, We can eithe cut lose and go our own way or hang in there My decision was the hardest of my life to stay with her but in the end I know it strengthened me. I hope every woman who reads this takes the time to go to the DR and get checked for cancer even though it may not show up you have to read the signs and get checked reguraly. If my wife had gone when she first felt the lump and the only reason she didn't go was her grandmoter was not a believer in doctors and passed that to her...We never know wht life will bring us but all we can do is do the best we can with wahat we have....Peace be with you all