hell
Hi, still in hell here. Waiting ....for something to happen, hoping I can have hope. I'm writing a book, not reading a book. I want to help people, I need to help people. I have to know that something good will come of this nightmare i live in. I have so many secrets I don't know where to begin. My teeth are better at least. I hope this ends soon. Next friday is our first pre trial, I hope we make it. usually one attorney or the other continue because of conflicting schedules. I hope he changes his plea to GUILTY and spares us the hell of court. I wish things were so different. I have no joy. I walk through all of this with nothing inside but deep sorrow. It's nothing like I've ever felt before. I still dream of him. Sometimes we're still together and I wake up and wonder if i want him still or if that was a nightmare or....... I'm so ashamed I dream of him. Someday I hope I am someone different than who I am today.
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Your going through so much and he is pretty much the center of it all, not unusual to have dreams about him.
You will get through this and maybe it\'s not something you can or want to do right now but you can help others with sharing your experience.
awwww..i\'m so sorry hon. You\'re going through an awful time right now. Knwo you\'re not alone hon. You\'re loved and thought of.
loving hugs to you
it something thats on your mind... you dream about the things that are bothering you. i tend to dream about things i can\'t make a decision about.
doesn\'t mean you want him...besides...you know if you do or not. pls don\'t be too hard on yourself.
hope the book is going well.