Heaven....NDE

i will share a gift I feel I was given many years ago.  I had had a surgery was in ICU kidney surgery. After ICU, I was taken to my room. that night myself found myself in what is now considered NDE. I awoke in this place. I saw someone, one my cousin, and others I did not know. I seen others but put no faces to them. I know I was feeling very tired.  I heard children laughing and playing. In the distance, I heard a car wreck. I turned to my cousin and said shouldn't someone go check on then. The women all smiled and my cousin said oh no worry, no one gets hurt here.  Then feeling very tired again I turned, there were these huge wooden doors.  I felt if I went into the room I could rest. I pushed the huge wooden doors open and the room was built of entire crystal.  It was so outstanding beautiful. In the center of the room was a Crystal Baby a grand Piano(some of you know I play the Piano). Such beauty I can not describe but I felt if I laid down by the piano on the Crystal floors I could rest so I did.  Then over my head I saw a crystal swirllin dome. From the top of the dome a voice.  To me it was a mail voice saying if I wanted to go back, I would have to throw this Crystal bar to the top of the Dome. I felt I couldn't but said I have to go back for my children. I picked up the Bar and thew the piece.  Next I felt myself go back into my body in the hospital bed.  For years this bothered me cause I had always read Streets of Gold. So how could I have experienced a part of Heaven.  Finally, one day I found it in the Bible. It read Streets of Gold as Crystal...you may ask in my last few journals why would I question afterlife..I know there is and I know one day I will join my family again.. Yet I am a mom who still has the need to know my Ken is okay...do I know he is   Yes.  Do I sometimes question everything Yes. But I do believe I experienced a part of Heaven and returned to my body.  But even though I believe as I said. I am still a mom wanting to see and know my Ken, my child, my son is okay..that is the human part of us that live on this earth.  I have shared this with very few people, so please know I do not take this lightly..
may all us mom's find peace.  Sandi