Heart isn't in it lately..
This doesn't have to do with my eating or exercise habits.. just life.
Thankfully I've managed to stay on track with my eating and exercise.. they seem to be the only things keeping me sane in the last few weeks/months. Especially exercise, which helps with the stress and worry in my life.
First, I was assigned a new position at work.. while I was happy to still be employed full time (my original position went part-time and I was moved into a new position in January), I am not at ALL happy with my new assignment. I used to LOVE my job and look forward to going to work every day, now I get that dreadful feeling in the pit of my pouch and dread going in every day. NOT GOOD. I finally polished up my resume and started sending it out a few days ago. I take everything very personally and feel very guilty about this, because I don't want to leave anyone in a lurch, but nobody is going to look out for me but ME. I'm very scared about job hunting again, but I think it's a wise move for me at this point. When your job stops becoming enjoyable it's time to move on to something that makes you happy again.
Secondly, some close friends of mine are going through something extremely traumatic, and it's affecting me as well. It's a tragic story.. their abused 3 week old niece is fostered into their care with a fracture in just about every bone in her body.. they nourish and love her back to full health, see her through her 1st birthday last Sunday, only to have a judge send her back to her mother 2 days later. It's heartbreaking, and we're sick to our stomachs over it.. if you're interested, a Tampa news station covered the story - my boyfriend is this couple's son's god-father and the couple is his best friend and best-friend's wife:
http://www.wtsp.com/news/local/story.aspx?storyid=180218&catid=8
We met baby Angelina when she still had broken bones and grinding ribs, and got to know and love her over the last year and now she's gone, and we'll probably not get to see her again anytime soon. It's so sad, and I'm kind of a detached party (compared to the foster parents) but I feel like I've suffered a loss too and am so worried about this baby's well-being. I'm sickened, and so disgusted.. but helpless to do anything.
I work at a TV station and alerted the news department to this story but they have yet to do anything. I want to do something to help, but I can't do anything but offer support in this terrible, terrible time.
God help that little angel.
Anyway, my running has been a good stress reliever for me. The effort I put into running helps to relieve the pain in my heart, mind, and soul and to help relieve some of the stress I am under at work and in life in general.
Funny how things work.
Thankfully I've managed to stay on track with my eating and exercise.. they seem to be the only things keeping me sane in the last few weeks/months. Especially exercise, which helps with the stress and worry in my life.
First, I was assigned a new position at work.. while I was happy to still be employed full time (my original position went part-time and I was moved into a new position in January), I am not at ALL happy with my new assignment. I used to LOVE my job and look forward to going to work every day, now I get that dreadful feeling in the pit of my pouch and dread going in every day. NOT GOOD. I finally polished up my resume and started sending it out a few days ago. I take everything very personally and feel very guilty about this, because I don't want to leave anyone in a lurch, but nobody is going to look out for me but ME. I'm very scared about job hunting again, but I think it's a wise move for me at this point. When your job stops becoming enjoyable it's time to move on to something that makes you happy again.
Secondly, some close friends of mine are going through something extremely traumatic, and it's affecting me as well. It's a tragic story.. their abused 3 week old niece is fostered into their care with a fracture in just about every bone in her body.. they nourish and love her back to full health, see her through her 1st birthday last Sunday, only to have a judge send her back to her mother 2 days later. It's heartbreaking, and we're sick to our stomachs over it.. if you're interested, a Tampa news station covered the story - my boyfriend is this couple's son's god-father and the couple is his best friend and best-friend's wife:
http://www.wtsp.com/news/local/story.aspx?storyid=180218&catid=8
We met baby Angelina when she still had broken bones and grinding ribs, and got to know and love her over the last year and now she's gone, and we'll probably not get to see her again anytime soon. It's so sad, and I'm kind of a detached party (compared to the foster parents) but I feel like I've suffered a loss too and am so worried about this baby's well-being. I'm sickened, and so disgusted.. but helpless to do anything.
I work at a TV station and alerted the news department to this story but they have yet to do anything. I want to do something to help, but I can't do anything but offer support in this terrible, terrible time.
God help that little angel.
Anyway, my running has been a good stress reliever for me. The effort I put into running helps to relieve the pain in my heart, mind, and soul and to help relieve some of the stress I am under at work and in life in general.
Funny how things work.
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Krista you are such a suppotive positive loving force on this board. I am so sorry that you seem so down.
Maybe you are simply going on with life and worrying less about weight and more about more pressing concerns.
You have done so well Krista, It\'s ok to slow down and make time for other things if you feel the need.
Just remember to continue to love yourself because you are worth it.
Thank-you for sharing and allowing us to be part of your journey, XXOO Hope
Krista, I feel so bad about this story, I know you are a good person and bad things make you upset, It made me upset and I do not even know these persons involved, being so close to the situation it must be very hard on you, I know I can not do much but I can pray for the child and all involved. I hope life gets better for you and you find something to be happy about, remember simple things bring us pleasure. Please let me know if I can help in any way.
Rhonda
Oh Krista, I share the feelings of disgust you have about the loss of the baby. I just can not understand how anyone can harm a child. The job situation too definitely affects all aspects of your life. I think it is great that you are being proactive and sending out the resumes. I wish you the best of luck. I feel certain that you will find something you will love soon!
Krista,
I am so sad that you are going through all of this in your life right now. I can\'t even begin to image the stress. I think it is wonderful that you are such a supportive friend... they will need one. I will pray for you and your friends.
I truly believe that the right job will come your way. I agree that you need to love what you do. I know change is hard, but you are right. You need to put you first and find a job that makes you happy. You are such a positive person, Krista. You need to surround yourself with positive things. Wishing you all the best!!
Kim
Thanks all, for the support and encouragement. Doing my best and staying positive. :)
Krista, I\'m sorry I didn\'t realize you were so stressed and down. Your excercise and running will help to keep you at a balance. I\'m glad you\'re taking a positive step towards finding a job that is right for you, I know you\'re very unhappy with what you\'re doing now. Always, remember that I\'m here for you whenever you need me.....not only as your Mother but also your friend,
Krista, I\'m sorry I didn\'t realize you were so stressed and down. Your excercise and running will help to keep you at a balance. I\'m glad you\'re taking a positive step towards finding a job that is right for you, I know you\'re very unhappy with what you\'re doing now. Always, remember that I\'m here for you whenever you need me.....not only as your Mother but also your friend,