health waise i feel better but emotialy not up to par still

to day i finaly stoped suffering as much w/ the sinuses and i even firued out how to ich the ich i had on my toncils wich was take some rouch egde texas toast and made shure it was crispy and made sure the roch side as mucha s possible touch the ishy post then i chased it down w/ some ice hold water so then the cold would also help the ich wich it worked
but latly i been asking my self am i happy w/ what i got  and every time the answer was no
becase i feel i should be at work out on the rail instead of pushing my face pup a glass and saying i want that when as of latly i havnt been able to get that