Health updates about Holly, and her healing journey. We're in this together :):)

hi angel friends, i wanted to take some time to do some deep from the heart writings, to share, and to include you all in, on this very important time, we're going through. We all have always been like a family here on ds, over the years, and sharing in all of the times, through the ups, downs, triumps, tragedies. Good times, or rough times, no matter what, we all have always stuck together, like a family does. my journals, whether spirited, or rough days, are always my story, and journey, of my days, and the days of my family and friends. one thing, i always know with all of my heart, to always be true, is that no matter what times come up, no matter how rough, tough, or challenging, You can always count on DS, family, friends, being there. This is one of those times, and i want to take some time to share, on this quite day, where it's after the holiday's, and times have settled, and can think with clearness, or heart feelings coming into full focus. This journal, is about Holly, and her health, and something she is going through. She needs all of us, with her, on this journey. prayers, healing energy, togetherness. Holly's definitely one of us, she use too be here on DS, it's how her and i met, and came to be together. She's a strong person, but we all need help, sometimes to make it through a challenge, that is upon us. She's always been a private person, but with her full blessing, this is something that can be shared, and needs to be shared, so that through these times, we all can rally around her, with her, her family, my family and i. We know we can count on you all, our dear angel friends :)

Holly has an Eating disorder, and it has gotten worse over time, and she is gonna be staying in the eating disorder hospital, rehabilitation center beginning on January 2nd, for therapy, and for healing. she kept the eating disorder from us all for a while, from her family, and i, and my family, due to worries, and nervousness about it. lots happened, with the developement of her eating disorder. her mom Linda, passed away in November, 2016. Holly has opened up over times, and shared with us all, about her eating disorder, and how it developed, and how it currently is. her mom Linda, couldn't eat due to her health conditions toward the final weeks of her life, and that impacted Holly a lot, to the point where, Holly stopped eating, for some time, and limited the amount of calories, she had, she said she felt guilty when she ate food, because her mom couldn't eat. i talked with her a lot, during those times, and her family too, and none of us, had any idea, she was going through this until she told us. she cut her calories down to 300 a day, and eventually below 100,calories, and even some days, she wasn't eating. she opened up, to me, her brother Robert, and her daughter Kim, her best friend Linda, and rest of her family. We're all very extremely worried about her. Holly and her mom were very close, and Holly took care of very much, of everything after her mom's passing. she took a lot, on her shoulders, that took it's toll. things she had to do, she, and us all wished she didn't have to go through it mostly on her own, her family was struggling too, with everything. Holly has told me, that she and her mom, were so close, they did special things together, like if her mom couldn't do something, then Holly said she wouldn't until her mom could again. When Linda's health was failing, she spent time with her in the hospital, October 31st, Halloween 2016, and also on November 4th, 2016 at the hospital. it was really hard for Holly. her angel mom Linda passed on November 11th, 2016. it was very hard on Holly, her family and us all. i use too talk with her mom on the phone, and Holly and i often share sweet moments, of a few years back when her mom and i were talking, and her mom said, "chris, do you see any frogs outside, or in the garden?" :) frogs were her favorite animal, and Holly got a frog tattoo with a heart, on her arm, in loving memory of her mom, and in my pictures, you may have seen a frog decorative, or two in my writing area, in our garden, or on my DS Christmas tree. it's for Holly's mom. She is, and always will be very  important to us :)

Things got hard for Holly, when she'd have family visits, we all didn't know, she was going through this. She has had a rough living situation, arrangement, with her housemate named Reginia. Regina has some issues, with anger, and hoarding, and it's an unhealthy living environment. Holly shared some pictures with us all, of herself, and the home, and we could see, she lost a lot of weight, and was below 100 pounds, and went back and forth, from 110, to 101. her living situation, affecting her too, and she has had lots of emotions, feelings, of getting new place. her family, living busy lifestyle, she felt alone alot, and felt like no one was there. It's been hard for her, to help her family realize, just how dire, and rough the situation is. it got worse for her living in Regina's home, in early July, when Regina had some emotional outbursts. Holly had some hard times, going to the stores, being around food, or seeing food. i helped her a lot, with times when she went to the stores, and would help talk her through the experiences. Regina's home is very cluttered, unhealthy, and recently deemed a fire hazard by health inspectors, and Holly over-heard the talk Regina and the health inspector talking, and Regina never told Holly about it being a fire hazard. the kitchen is almost un-usable. Holly's broken down a lot, over the past year, with her health,and has stomach issues, due to her eating disorder, anxiety, stress. it's not good, and she did talk with her therapist, and also with her dr, they tried to help her out, we all did, but she needs further help, from therapists, and nutritionalist. This was going on, for months and months, trying to seek help, and i gave her lots of love, care, and support, during these times. there was talk of an outpatient program at one time. my family and i have been stepping up, to help Holly, with financial, and also with items she needs, whether it was a vick's vaporizer, or other items, to help her with her migraines.

Holly's health has declined, she has had some falls, and injuries from those falls. it's been very hard and emotional on us all. on December 21st, Holly, her brother, daughter, and her brother's inlaws, Margie, and Chet, all had a visit at Margie's and Chet's home, and discussed Holly's health, healing, and living arrangement. Holly is going to be staying in a rehabilitation center, for eating disorders, Shepperd's Pratt hospital. it's been very emotional times, we just want Holly to be ok, to heal, and to have good health, this new year, 2019, and beyond. She's been worried about her heart, her stomach, and lots more, and it's taken it's toll on her a lot. i've been sticking right by her side, through everything, studying, reading, giving her the best support i can, all of my love, encouragement. we all love Holly, and we want what's best for her. We're all rallying around her, surrounding her, with love, care, and support. She can and will make it through this. She's had ups, and downs, rough days, and good days, and some months, better than others, but it's been a rollercoaster for her, and she wants the rollercoaster to slow down, and for her to be able to be back on her feet again, and to be healthier.

Holly and i have been spending extra time together, before she goes into the rehabilitation hospital. she's not gonna have her cell phone, or computer. she and i have been keeping tightly close together, during Christmas Eve, holiday, spending lots of time together. She had an emotional visit with her best friend Linda, on December 27th, Linda's like a sister to her. This has been very hard on us all, but we're keeping strong, for Holly, she's a wonderful person, very caring, and she deserves goodness. i've been telling her, i say, "Holly, no matter what, we're with you every step, 2 acorns" @@ i gave her 2 connected acorns in 2011, and she keeps them in her treasures box, as a symbol of our love, togetherness, and strength in how we always stick together :) our favorite number is 11, and when we see an 11 on our shows/movies, or numbers that add up to 11, we give eachother a kiss on the phone :) We believe in her, we want her to be ok :)

Holly and i both have been reassuring eachother, and being there for our family's, that through all these times, healing journey she's on, we're with her, every step, and that we'll get back to our days, as we know it, from our long talks, adventures, and all of the party's each night, it's all gonna happen :) Holly has been packing up items, and she's putting her boxes in storage. The place she is gonna be staying at, for possible 3 weeks, or more, will be helping her get a new place that's healthier, and better for her, emotional, and physical well being, and for her healing :) we're all very proud of Holly, her strength, and how she's keeping on, keeping on, each day, and her determination, to help. :) She has it in her ,and i know, with all of the love of my heart, she's gonna get better :)

It's gonna be a tough challenge, but we're all gonna make it through :) Holly's gonna be able to make some calls, each day, and also, her family and i, all have eachother's cell numbers, phone numbers, to communicate, to keep eachother balanced, hopeful, and thinking of Holly progressing forward, for healing :) This is her life, this is a fight, and battle, for her life, for her future, and she's very very worth it, and we're gonna be right by her side, every day, and i will certainly update everyone here in my journals, on how she's doing :) Holly and i spend lots of time together, with our talks, and our party's, and weekend's, and all of that, is gonna have to be put on hold, right now, but it's temporary, and Holly has been reassuring me, that once she's out of the place, and into a brand new better living arrangement, that all is gonna be ok, and will be better than before, all of our talks, party's, adventures, it's all on, but right now, the most focused thing we are focused on, is her health,healing, and her making it through this, one hour, one day at a time :) She's been putting her belongings in storage, getting some things in order, like her medicines, mail deliveries.

Holly cares very deeply about everyone, she asks about you all, she's an amazing person, she has my heart, and i have her heart, and we both know, how very blessed, we are to have eachother, and wonderful family's, and wonderful family of friends, all around the world, who are going to be there for us, during these times, of Holly's healing, and making it through each day, with pure hope, determination, and focus on good health :) we're all in this, together :) i will be writing letters, cards, notes, to Holly, and with my new printer, will be able to print some pictures for her, to mail to her at shepperd's pratt hospital. i also have talked with her therapist before, her family and i, we all have eachother's phone numbers, her brother Robert and i have been texting eachother :) we're all on board, we're all in this same boat, and we're all reaching for Holly to give her strength, hope, and all of the courage she needs, to keep on keeping on, each day :) her life, her future, depends on it, and this journey of healing. She's been through a lot, the past 6 years, migraines, tia strokes, injuries from falls, and more,including an eating disorder. She's one of the strongest people i know, and she can and will make it through this. :)

Holly needs us all to be strong for her. i know i need to keep strong, i know she and i both, will be missing our deep long talks, party's, but we'll keep focused on keeping progressing forward, every single day, because there is a finish line, a line that will be reached, where the progress he needs, and has to make, will be there, and she will achieve it. we all believe in her, and have faith in her :) i will write a Holly update every day in my journal, about her and i getting to talk, and her healing progress :)we want you all in, on this journey. like i said earlier, Holly's a private person, she really is, but she needs us all here, she needs us a lot right now, and we all gotta be with her in spirit, on this healing journey. i'm thankful, and so glad to be writing, because this all, has been on my heart, and spirit a lot, especially since December 21st, when she had the meeting with her family about her eating disorder, and going into a hospital, for patients with eating disorders. we all have the number to the place, and will be able to keep close with Holly, during these times. Health first, everything else, will be fine, but her health, is #1 priority right now. We're very hopeful, hoping,and praying for a full healing recovery for her, and that all will be ok, and that she will come out of this, healthier than before, stronger, and a new look on life, that she so very much ,deserves. We all love her, and her being in our lives, and us all, being in her life :) We all have experienced so many emotions with current times, and more emotional times, we know we'll face, but every step, she knows we're right there with her :)

Please keep Holly and i, and our family's, in your thoughts, and prayers. Thank you angel friends, so very much :) we gonna need you all often, during these times, we always need you, but right now, even more than before, because this challenge, and healing journey, is gonna be a tough one, but we're all gonna make it, and it gives us strength, hope, and inspiration, knowing you all are right there for us. <3 like Holly often says to me, "we got this!" :) thank you angel friends, for reading, for being here for us, and for being the most wonderful friends :) i'm going to focus into some cards, notes, and letters writing, it's something i want to do a lot of, in 2019, especially to begin the new year :) i will be sending Holly cards, and letters, and will include a special, "from DS friends" to her, message with loving care, support, and encouragement :) She knows how wonderful you all are, and she's very thankful for you all, very much :) we all are :) 

-never lose hope :)

i will keep everyone updated, every day in my journals :) we're going on, with every day, traditions, it's all on, but i will be posting a daily update in my journal too, on Holly's health, and communication with her :) She and i will get to talk, and she'll update us all :) We're gonna roll with her on this, and times will be better again, for her, for us all, and a healthy 2019, we wish so very much for :) we want Holly with us. :) Big group caring warm family love hug <3 Holly, we're with you a11 the way :)