HE\'S SO DAMN SELFISH.. SO SELF-CENTERED !!!!!

My Ex-BF called Me Last Night out of the blue. I should have figured as soon as I saw on the Caller ID that it was Him, that He was ONLY calling FOR SOMETHING ! It turned out that the ONLY Reason He called was to check and see IF any Mail for Him had come here recently. I told Him I don't know what You think I can do with it, because I don't have the Stamps to mail it to You, and No Money to even Buy Stamps right now ! I guess He didn't really care about the 2 Pieces of Mail I mentioned that were here, because He didn't give Me an Address to Mail it out to Him anyway. So I suppose I'll probably write on the Mail... RETURN TO SENDER - NOT AT THIS ADDRESS, and put it back in the Mail. OR Should I just throw it out ???!!! LOL.. I'm VERY tempted to just THROW IT OUT ! As if it wasn't Bad Enough that He called about His STUPID MAIL, but then He started talking about the " Things " of His that He had left behind because He was limited to 3 suitcases for the Flight to Arizona - where He is NOW with His New Gf ! He actually had the NERVE on the Phone Last Night to suggest that He could send Me a MONEY ORDER so that I could SHIP OUT TO HIM His Things !!!!!!! LOL... HAHAHAHAHAHAHA !!!! YEAH RIGHT !!!! IN HIS DREAMS MAYBE !!!! HOW DARE HE EVEN SUGGEST THAT I SHOULD DO SOMETHING ' FOR HIM ' LIKE THAT AFTER EVERYTHING HE PUT ME THROUGH... AFTER ALL OF THE PAIN EMOTIONAL, AND PHYSICAL, THAT HE CAUSED ME !!!!! When He suggested that, I told Him... Well, I was Thinking of TRYING TO SELL His " Things ", somehow. I don't think He liked hearing that ! LOL ... His Reply was that He didn't think I'd get very much money for the few " Things " He left behind, and started suggesting that I should just BOX IT UP, and put it in the Small Shed outside on the little Patio Area that I have just outside the Sliding Glass Door of My Apartment. WHY should I even do that ??! I was thinking when He mentioned that. I'm thinking BEFORE I even go to that sort of Length with His " Things ", I'll simply just grab several GARBAGE BAGS, AND CHUCK ALL OF IT IN THE GARBAGE BAGS TO BE THROWN OUT !!!!!!! In the Middle of Our Discussion about what He TOOK, and what He Left Behind, I was TRYING TO ASK HIM A FEW QUESTIONS that I felt I had EVERY RIGHT TO ASK ! LIKE... HOW CAN YOU BE WITH HER, WHEN ON HER AIM PROFILE IT SAYS THAT SHE'S MARRIED ?????? This started setting off His Anger, and at First He tried to REFUSE to answer Me, but I told Him... I feel I have a RIGHT TO KNOW, after ALL of the Time We shared Together ! He said that She HAD LEFT HER HUSBAND, SO SHE'S SEPARATED FROM HIM RIGHT NOW... and I'm assuming in the Middle of filing for Divorce ! I told Him that since that's the CASE then ALL HE IS TO HER IS A RE-BOUND RELATIONSHIP SINCE IT'S SO SOON AFTER HER MARRIAGE ! He insisted He doesn't think that's the Case, because according to what SHE told Him, He's Her 3rd Relationship AFTER Separating from Her Husband ! I still told Him, that that doesn't matter... She hasn't had Time to completely get over Her Marriage. I know He didn't believe Me, but I know it's NOT My Problem, it's HIS ! He'll find out I'm right when She probably either RECONCILES with Her Husband, OR after a Short Time probably moves on to another Guy !I told Him about Her E-Mailing Me Sunday, and He didn't really have ANY sort of Reaction. I think that made Me even Angrier than I was already at that point  ! Because when I told Him sarcastically... " Oh Thank You for letting HER see the E-mails I had written to You ! ", since She had mentioned Them in Her Very Angry, and Cruel, E-mail to Me ! His Reply to that was a Very Lame EXCUSE ! He simply said that He couldn't help that She got on the Computer while He was in the Bathroom ! LAME STUPID EXCUSE !!!!! I told Him that I didn't appreciate Her Threatening Me in the E-mail... Threatening to " Involve the Law " IF I EVER CONTACT HIM AGAIN !! I told Him... IF SHE EVER E-MAILS ME AGAIN, THEN IT'LL BE ' ME ' THAT INVOLVES THE LAW !!!!! Overall, during the Entire Time I was on the Phone with Him, He had NO RESPECT FOR ME AT ALL... NO CONSIDERATION FOR MY FEELINGS AT ALL ! I don't know WHY I would have expected any different. I just don't know.I thought - mistakenly now, I see - that He would be ' reasonable ', and that He'd ANSWER the Questions I asked Him, since We had shared a LONG Term Relationship. BUT apparently ALL of those Times We shared meant NOTHING TO HIM ! At the Very End... this was what TORE MY HEART APART... TORE MY VERY SOUL APART... I ASKED HIM STRAIGHT OUT... " DID YOU EVER TRULY LOVE ME ???? EVER ??? "HIS ANSWER WAS SILENCE FOR A VERY BRIEF MOMENT, AND THEN HE HUNG UP !!!!! So I guess that was His ANSWER ! It threw Me for such a Major Loop, that I was having a MAJOR PANIC ATTACK !!!!!! THANK GOD... THAT THERE HAPPENED TO BE A CHAT ROOM OPEN IN HERE AT THAT TIME LAST NIGHT !!!! I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD HAVE DONE IF I HADN'T BEEN ABLE TO TALK TO ANYONE ! I JUST DON'T KNOW ! The Sorrow, Darkness, and Misery, of that Moment felt as IF it surrounded Me like a HEAVY WET BLANKET, AND IT WOULDN'T LET ME BREATHE !!!!! Talking in the Chat Room Last Night SAVED ME !... LITERALLY SAVED ME ! THANK YOU SO MUCH TO ALL OF MY FRIENDS.... THANK GOD FOR THE CHAT ROOMS ON HERE ! Today I'm doing So-So. I'm NOT feeling Panicky, Thank Goodness.I just feel sort of NUMB. But, I figure sometimes NUMB is better than HURTING.