he left

Well he left yesterday I was sad at the parting but the tension is gone so that is good. I don't have to listen for when he comes home and wonder where he has been and who has had been talking to. although I know its one of his "friends" but its not in my face anymore and that's good.  I hate that we could not be the family unit that I wanted and I see my sister and brother have and even my friends.  I wanted that so bad, but how stupid of me to even think that because he is not normal he is a person with an addiction and a personality to go with it.  It was never neant to be the way I wanted or needed it to be.  I should have know all those yrs ago when he asked me out for two years and I kept saying no because I did see in him something, but I guess I fell in love or maybe  I just got comfortable and loved the fact he loved me so much to not give up.  Well now he gave up everything by not making me his priority and choosing to go  on with his behavior addiction or not he could have gotten help, but no he choose not to.  I am done I need to be done