He chose her instead of me

Had a relationship with him over than 4 years.Since 2009. It was a long distance relationship since he lives in other country. We met once for real when I was visiting him in 2012. Then, he cheated on me.He got married last year (2016) with the same girl.  That girl has the same nationality as me whom studying at the country he lives. He lives far away but now they both settled down in my country.

Funny thing about that girl is,  she was the one who had a problem and I wanted to help her and since she's alone in a foreign country, I asked my ex to help her. She knew I was in relationship with him! But it turned she's stolen him. Okay,  maybe not her but my ex who wants her.

In April 2016, I was devastated after one of my friend shown their marriage's  photo. Since I cut all my contacts from him in 2013. I don't really know what happened to them. But after I saw that photo, it was like someone is stabbing your heart into pieces and it's really painful. 

In July 2016, he found me on facebook a few months after he got married. He created new profile account and messaged me since I blocked him on facebook. He asked to meet me face to face and I agreed. We met in August 2016 for a lunch and I asked him what does he wants and he said he wants me back!  At that time, it was like " now you come to your sense!"....  He wanted to see and meet me again on the next weekend to explain more.  I called him to arrange meeting but he didn't picked up his phone. So I thought he doesn't want to meet me anymore I guess.   So I blocked him,  deleted his numbers.

In 2017, I mistakenly saw my best friend is friended with him on Instagram. I felt uncomfortable cause I know he stalks me through my friends.  Then I asked my friend to unfriend him. Then again,  I'm surprised he has been messaging my best friend starting in June,  July, August, Sept, Oct and November secretly asking my phone number. My best friend shown all those messages he sent and none of those messages been replied by my BFF.

And right now,  I have his number. I am the one who contacted him and explaining to him to not disturbing my close friends to get intouch to me. He asked me again to meet me face to face have lunch and wants to explain. Explaining about what,  I even don't know.  Again, I'm giving him another chance to explain.  We will meet in Jan 2018. He is still married. He is a someone's husband and I know that fact. I'd say the meeting is gonna be a normal lunch as an old friends having lunch,  and that's it.  And I want to hear what he is going to explain. 

Honestly, at this moment all of my heart and love I felt for him for over than 4 years ago has shattered away. I have no feelings for him,  but I do still care for him it's not because of love,  but as an old friend. I will never forget what had happened even I forgave both of them.