Honestly I have not been then happy for so long in a long time. Finally having peace has made such a difference in my life. I am so glad that i was able to turn to the lord and get confort from him. I realize I had to do it on my own time when i was ready. You cant really fake it. I dont know what the future holds but i am ready to accept what ever the lord gives me. Its exciting and i am trying to wait and not be impatient. Its so much easier when you know it is coming though. It also so nice not to have to stress over everything. I know we will adopt and I know I will get pregnant. Im ok with everything now. Finally!!!!!