Having More Pain
Tuesday, December 30, 2008 This year is almost over, and it is ending much better than it began. According to my social worker, my drug addiction is now in remission. That does not mean that I am cured, since there is no "cure" as such. It does mean that I am no longer actively addicted to the crack cocaine as I once was addicted to it. I now realize that it is not an answer to any of my problems, as I once thought would be the case. At one time, the drugs had a numbing effect from pains I had associated with my family and the difficulties I had with the members of it. During the last half-year or so, I have been working with both my brother and my sister in an effort to regain closer family ties. I saw my social worker or this morning. The state is doing some surveys with several of his clients, and I am one of them. He worked with me on completing some of the forms that were sent to him. We also talked about the fact that I am feeling worse physically now than I had a few weeks ago. I explained that would have to be the case since Medicaid has notified my physical therapist and doctor that my physical therapy would have to stop in one or two weeks. My social worker said that under the circumstances, he thought I needed to make an appeal of the ruling. He put in a call to the Medicaid contact person who handles my case in Denver, and left a message asking that his call be returned as soon as possible. He told me that having to put up with excessive pain for an indefinite period would not be good for my psychological problems. In addition to calling my case manager, Dale said that he might need to call my doctor, the doctor's social worker, my psychologist, and my physical therapist in order to get things moving and try to get my Medicaid status reinstated. I had originally thought I would not need additional physical therapy for a while, but at that time, I was not aware that my pain level was going to be increasing. That, in itself, was a very unpleasant surprise.