having grandkids
Dear Diary
I am tired the 6 yr old has me very tired, the 3 yr old a little less hyper
but I know when they leave Sunday the quiet will be sad because they live 6 hours away and I do not get to see them that much. I will enjoy the rest in a few days and accept but gosh if only there was a feasible way. Than again do I want to move to ways away start all over and try to adjust to new life. I just do not know.
I have a 6.5 hr a day job that keeps the finances better, but 5 acres & large 4 bedroom home is so much maintenance but my payments of 260 a month I can not bet esp. when I have less than 8 yrs left. Sigh...
Living here is lonely. If I left I would still be lonely as the kids have their own life. Even if I got to see Grandkids more. Sigh....
But I know when I leave Boise I cry and when the kids leave my home in WA to go back I cry.
This Sat. daughter & son with families will go up in mtns where his ashes are spread, and put down flowers, well if the thunder and lightning does not stop us as its kicking up good right now - its very very smoky due to Canada and local fires....Its July 31st 5 years he has been gone. I have survived!!!
I am tired the 6 yr old has me very tired, the 3 yr old a little less hyper
but I know when they leave Sunday the quiet will be sad because they live 6 hours away and I do not get to see them that much. I will enjoy the rest in a few days and accept but gosh if only there was a feasible way. Than again do I want to move to ways away start all over and try to adjust to new life. I just do not know.
I have a 6.5 hr a day job that keeps the finances better, but 5 acres & large 4 bedroom home is so much maintenance but my payments of 260 a month I can not bet esp. when I have less than 8 yrs left. Sigh...
Living here is lonely. If I left I would still be lonely as the kids have their own life. Even if I got to see Grandkids more. Sigh....
But I know when I leave Boise I cry and when the kids leave my home in WA to go back I cry.
This Sat. daughter & son with families will go up in mtns where his ashes are spread, and put down flowers, well if the thunder and lightning does not stop us as its kicking up good right now - its very very smoky due to Canada and local fires....Its July 31st 5 years he has been gone. I have survived!!!
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Nicker07, it\'s so wonderful you have grandchildren, they are such a blessing. I was wondering if there is somewhere half way where you could meet up every so often so you get to see them more often. Sounds like you are doing a fantastic job and almost five years. You give me hope that I will make it through this lousy journey. Hugs, Michele
Five years! I have only been in my journey 9 months. I am in the same situation with house etc. Can\'t make up my mind what to do. Sell buy condo, stay??? Oh well if only my heart would heal then maybe I could make a decision. I just wonder how long does it take? Does it ever heal or you just learn to cope. I love my g/kids to but I know they do wear you out. Miss them so much when they leave. Prayers for you. I hope I survive! Linda