Having a rough day

Today has been rough for me. Spent some time with dad, we went to get medicine for the cat and had lunch at Arby's. I have been trying to stay busy to keep my mind off of things. Trying to post in all of my groups, friends were getting worried. But talking about my mom is hard. dad just made it harder mentioning mom has been gone a month. I am struggling, trying to hold myself together. Going out to the stores I feel I am going to have a panic attack. The nightmares are haunting me of the rapes and times I have been attacked. My back feels like it is twisted in knots. I have a feeling my ex is having trouble, and I worry about him. I know in time he will be back. I am also an empath so that don't  help me either. I can feel others emotions and their pain. I was so run down when my mom was sick, it was draining me. Now I am drained from my dads ups and downs with emotions and his diabetes. I can also feel when my ex gets sick from his drinking. I sometimes get visions of the future which spooks people out. But if the dream is persistent then I know it will come true. Today is just a low day for me. Hopefully the insurance kicks in so I can go back on the Zoloft, it was helping some.