Having a hard time today.

Today I am having a more difficult time than others with my job situation.  I'm having trouble keeping faith today.  I've been applying, searching and interviewing and waiting for a new job for almost 3 years now and I guess it's just not time yet. 
I feel that I have done pretty well thus far in keeping faith that God just has a lesson for me to learn in all of this.  I'm not saying I'm giving up, or that I don't believe he has a higher plan for me, but I'm just saying that today I am struggling with my faith just a little.  Today I don't want to be patient waiting for a new job to come along.  I don't feel I deserve this anymore.  I know I never deserve to be treated the way I am in my job, and I guess I just want confirmation of that. 
I'm pretty much at the end of my rope and consider quitting just about everyday, but I know that I don't have enough saved to last as long as I would need to in case I can't find a job, because the market is just so bad right now. 
I just needed to get this off my chest.