haven't been on here in 5 years

I haven't been on here for a long time, I don't have a computer and can't be on here as much as I want to. I'm doing better, still struggle with depression and self-sabotage thoughts. Life is hard. So many changes have happened in my life that I feel stressed out. I've let a lot of people down and feel terrible about that. I am mad at myself for screwing a lot of things up. I wish I could go back and change those things, but I can't because they are in the past.
More to come later. Not sure how long it will be. send me a message if you want, I will respond as soon as I can. sorry I can't be on here more, but that's how my life is, hopefully I can get my own laptop or computer with internet someday, but for now i'll check it as often as I can.
Love you guys lots!