I wonder all the time. I do feel I was punished for something. I know that is not really true. It does hurt so bad. I can\'t think clear. Sending you an extra tight HUG. Love, Lucille
vicki...not a day goes by that i dont wonder what i did to deserve this...i feel as if i did my best and i worked so very hard to provide and loved them with all my heart ..i know i did my best..but i still beat myself up over certain things...cody and i were best friends,...we talked about everything...he had a heart of gold...and so do i...but i ask myself everyday...wouldnt i have known if he was on drugs...couldnt i tell?...i know he was a daredevil and he was all boy...and things were experienced...but he always told me....all i can say is that he fooled me some how some way...but he was a great son and always will be...he was my sunshine ..always there to help me with anything and everything...he was a hard worker and cared about family and friends...always lending a helping hand to anyone in need.......but ill stop rambling and say yes...i feel as if im be punished for something ..and life is hell living or trying to live a life without HIM...but im gona keep walking down this road ..and try to keep my chin up and work on positive thoughts and make him proud of me...im so thankful for the time i had with him,,,i just wish it could have been alot longer...he had so many dreams and wanted to go to college...he wanted to be somebody....and he was somebody...he was my son that im still very proud of ..and I always will be!!...i miss him more than words can say...MORE AND MORE EACH DAY...he was givith and he was taketh away...im hugging u tight my friend...and the tears are streaming cos i understand and i know ur heartache and all the questions u ask...YES I WONDER EVERYDAY...LUV U
I used to wonder that same question all the time and actually thought of everything bad I had ever done in my life and knew I was being punished. Then I would see someone I thought did things that were much worse so why me? It\'s just our emotions getting the best of us. We are human and make mistakes and of course we aren\'t being punished. It may sound crazy, but us mothers say crazy things to rid our pain or rationalize our fears and sometimes I tell myself that my son was \"needed\" for something far greater than I can comprehend now and he was special enough to be picked. It really does comfort me because there are far too many wonderful children gone from this eartly life for anything else to make sense. Here for you. Love Robin
Yes I thank we all have been down that road. My question was why didn\'t the other boy in the truck die, he was nothing but trouble to his family. But then I think I shouldn\'t be thanking that way. So I thank we all beat ourselves up wondering what if...Hugs, Connie
I have wondered that too. My problems are diffent from yours, but for the past 3 years I have been going through something really tough that I can\'t really tell anyone about, although I have found others on the internet who suffer from the same thing I have been suffering and it helps. I have read that God gives us the bad times to help us grow and get stronger and that HE is there whenever you need him. I don\'t know why your son died, but I do know that you have become a much stronger person and have reached out to others who suffer like you and have made yourself some good friends here at DS. I guess some good can come out of bad. May Justin rest in eternal peace in the loving embrace of God and may his mother realize what a wonderful person she is and that she does not need to blame herself for his death . It is a terrible thing to have him die so young, but you will go on and he will be kept alive in your memory. Maybe someday you can do something special here on earth to honor him. He was a wonderful person and so is his mother. God bless:0)
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Have You Ever Wondered? duh sorry about the misspelling
You have not done anything to deserved this...or to cause this...things happen...love to you...Karen
I wonder all the time. I do feel I was punished for something. I know that is not really true. It does hurt so bad. I can\'t think clear. Sending you an extra tight HUG. Love, Lucille
vicki...not a day goes by that i dont wonder what i did to deserve this...i feel as if i did my best and i worked so very hard to provide and loved them with all my heart ..i know i did my best..but i still beat myself up over certain things...cody and i were best friends,...we talked about everything...he had a heart of gold...and so do i...but i ask myself everyday...wouldnt i have known if he was on drugs...couldnt i tell?...i know he was a daredevil and he was all boy...and things were experienced...but he always told me....all i can say is that he fooled me some how some way...but he was a great son and always will be...he was my sunshine ..always there to help me with anything and everything...he was a hard worker and cared about family and friends...always lending a helping hand to anyone in need.......but ill stop rambling and say yes...i feel as if im be punished for something ..and life is hell living or trying to live a life without HIM...but im gona keep walking down this road ..and try to keep my chin up and work on positive thoughts and make him proud of me...im so thankful for the time i had with him,,,i just wish it could have been alot longer...he had so many dreams and wanted to go to college...he wanted to be somebody....and he was somebody...he was my son that im still very proud of ..and I always will be!!...i miss him more than words can say...MORE AND MORE EACH DAY...he was givith and he was taketh away...im hugging u tight my friend...and the tears are streaming cos i understand and i know ur heartache and all the questions u ask...YES I WONDER EVERYDAY...LUV U
I used to wonder that same question all the time and actually thought of everything bad I had ever done in my life and knew I was being punished. Then I would see someone I thought did things that were much worse so why me? It\'s just our emotions getting the best of us. We are human and make mistakes and of course we aren\'t being punished. It may sound crazy, but us mothers say crazy things to rid our pain or rationalize our fears and sometimes I tell myself that my son was \"needed\" for something far greater than I can comprehend now and he was special enough to be picked. It really does comfort me because there are far too many wonderful children gone from this eartly life for anything else to make sense. Here for you. Love Robin
Yes I thank we all have been down that road. My question was why didn\'t the other boy in the truck die, he was nothing but trouble to his family. But then I think I shouldn\'t be thanking that way. So I thank we all beat ourselves up wondering what if...Hugs, Connie
I have wondered that too. My problems are diffent from yours, but for the past 3 years I have been going through something really tough that I can\'t really tell anyone about, although I have found others on the internet who suffer from the same thing I have been suffering and it helps. I have read that God gives us the bad times to help us grow and get stronger and that HE is there whenever you need him. I don\'t know why your son died, but I do know that you have become a much stronger person and have reached out to others who suffer like you and have made yourself some good friends here at DS. I guess some good can come out of bad. May Justin rest in eternal peace in the loving embrace of God and may his mother realize what a wonderful person she is and that she does not need to blame herself for his death . It is a terrible thing to have him die so young, but you will go on and he will be kept alive in your memory. Maybe someday you can do something special here on earth to honor him. He was a wonderful person and so is his mother. God bless:0)